Not a Single Thing

 This weekend I didnt do a single solitary useful thing. I didn't get my seeds planted, didn't get Maggie detailed, didn't get my room picked up. Didn't cook, didn't do laundry, didnt drive anywhere- didn't watch a movie-(which is usually my fav thing to do on the weekends...just sitting watching a movie with my kids- or sitting on the front porch swing or on the back deck in the shade feeling the breeze on my face(I would say in my hair but I chopped that all off a couple weeks ago-LOL) and just listening to the quiet and peace of nature). I literally SLEPT all weekend.

On the way home from work Friday I got hit numerous times in the face by direct unfiltered sunlight. Bright light- be it natural OR artificial hitting my eyes equals instant migraine. It's Number 2 of my migraine triggers- closely following behind heavy cloying perfumes, colognes or body sprays. The only deodorant that has ever triggered one is the old BRUT deodorant spray. And I don't think they even make BRUT anymore - thank heaven for small miracles.

I actually had to pull the car over twice because I felt like I was going to throw up from the pain. Luckily, I made it home where I immediately took one of my prescription migraine tablets and went to bed. Those things are tiny but they pack a PUNCH- even halved they still knock me OUT for 12 or more hours.

The entire weekend I was awake long enough to eat twice and then it was straight back to bed.  I might have woken up and tried to do something on my computer- but honestly I'm not sure if I actually DID that(the computer was in the same place and off when I got up this morning) or if it was just a la-la-land dream.  That's another side effect of those tablets- crazy realistic weird dreams. They make total sense while I'm dreaming but on the rare occasion I remember them when I wake up I think "HTH did I ever think that was actually possible in my dream?????" Sometimes I wish I could remember how I did some of the things because if I could get a patent I'd be Elaine Musk RICH!!! 

Anywho- that is why I suffer thru migraines on work days. There isn't a snowball's chance in hell I could drive on Patrol  when I'm taking my migraine medication. I wouldn't even be able to sit at a desk.

What I'd do is become the Queen of the DREAM TEAM. That's what my sister and I call the on duty sleepers. 

Not My Style. Not even in my wildest Migraine Medded up dreams!!!

*I feel much better today- and am wearing my sunglasses.

Re-Evaluating...

So as you all know I moved back to the UK about Two years, Two months, and Nine days ago.

 At the time when I first returned, I swore that I wouldn't divorce- just to keep me from being an idiot again, but things happen. A LOT has happened in that time.

And HELL NO- it's not another man in my life. I was serious as a dang heart attack when I said I'll never marry again. 

But there are other aspects of life that need to be resolved at this point in my life and as S2BX isn't in my life except in name- I think it's time we move on- legally. S2BX is still young enough he can find someone romantically compatible and maybe even have a baby or two of his own - if he is so inclined. And if some legal things come up in the future, I don't want him to be held accountable for the fees involved just because we are still married in name. It was MY choice to leave and move back to America, even tho my choice was entirely determined by my interpretation of his actions. I'm pretty positive he feels the same way about my actions as well.

It turns out, in South Carolina we can file for a No-Fault Divorce if we have been separated/not co-habited for 1 year or more. No one was at fault- we just decided it was over and made it so.

I cant say there isn't animosity- there isn't on my part- but he has said to me that if it were up to him he'd never have to think about me or hear my name again...plus, he asked me not to contact him again.

I was honoring his wishes, but then I found out we could do the No-Fault Divorce so I did contact him a couple days ago to let him know what it involved and he, without hesitation or anger(none that I could sense in the text anyway) said- yes, please, do it. So I think he may be ready to move on as well. So I'll be going forward with the NFD proceedings as soon as it can be arranged.

I continue to wish him only happiness in the future.

Destruction of Humanity- It's Our Own Fault.

  I was listening to SCPR this morning and  one of the people said that Human Consumption is destroying the world. 

I unfortunately think they are correct. 

I'm trying to cut back on our footprint on this earth, but I think overall, it's a lost cause because the majority of the population of this wonderful planet just doesnt have it in them to THINK about how much  trash they put out into the world on a daily..... multiply that by the number of people on this planet and we are pretty much doomed- and I don't think it will take much longer to completely ruin our planet. Maybe we've gone too far to turn back the hands of time.

I literally break into a cold sweat when I take our stuff to the recycling center and see how much other people are using and taking there. 

Remember when COVID hit and the world came to almost a complete standstill...everyone was isolating- the air quality improved drastically and the ozone started healing......

It hasn't been that long since the restrictions were lifted- not really.... and we are back to using and disposing of more than ever.

Can this planet and humanity be saved? 

At this rate- I doubt it. But you can try to convince me otherwise if you like. I really would like to be proven wrong.

Thank God It's Over!!!!

 So March 2026 was almost a total bust.  A couple of good things happened- but on the general scale from 1-10 it was a defo 2.

I said April has GOT to be better, but if this morning is any indication of how good it's going to be I'm gonna say it's gonna be even worse than March.

So I'm wracking my brain trying to figure out how to circumvent the chaos.... but, so far, I got Nuffin.

I'm pretty sure (about 99.9999999999999% )it's just small issues coupled with the misery of spring pollen season that is making things seem much worse than they are. 

Why oh WHY cant it be Autumn all year long? Very little pollen, beautiful crisp cool weather, Amazing colours surrounding us everywhere we look..... I'm just so relaxed during that time of year!!!

Summers are the worst for me- Miserable heat and humidity,  direct glaring blazing sunshine you just can't hide from unless you live in a cave. I don't think I'd mind it nearly so much if there was a refreshing water source nearby to play in- a pool, a brook, a creek, a pond, a lake or even (as much as I don't like it there) the beach.- I know I only live 20 minutes from the lake- but in the summer it seems like those 20 short miles may as well be 220..... and when I say close- I mean within walking distance... 

 I'll try to be in a better mood tomorrow y'all. 

In the meantime- enjoy the tom-foolery of the day!!!

Feed Silo and Water Windmill Complete... now to the REAL FUN!!!!

 I love Ranch Simulator. It's set in some remote location like Montana or somewhere with similar terrain.

Lots of Hills and trees and boulders and ravines.... Wilderness- well, that's how it started out- in the subsequent updates and expansions the original General Store and separate gas station have been upgraded to a little tiny town with a General store, a separate gas station, a Best Burger to sell meat and dairy, and a little collection of shops(unusable at this time-just for looks) with a Hardware store(usable. It even has a car dealership and a bank for loans....of course it does. 

My little game has defo evolved. 

I can tell you right now that I emphatically DO NOT like the little town. It wasnt well designed, its cookie cutter plain jane and drives like a rats maze. I avoid it unless I'm going to sell my goods at the Best Burger(thankfully it's the closest building to me & just across the road from my Ranch(VipersNest I named it). The Hardware store where you buy all the things for planting(I don't do that-it's boring to me) and building- planks and metals and camping gear and such....(I most certainly DO that- and a lot of it!!!) you can get there.... I just don't understand why you have to buy ammo at the General store which closes at 10pm- when it CLEARLY should be sold at the Hardware store which is open 24 hours(self serve). I always run out of ammo when I'm hunting at night and need it most.

Anyway..... I played 2 hours when I got home and no one was there but me. I got my Grain silo and my windmill for the water built, got a mini quest done and made 2500 for my trouble- that dagger was a BEAST to locate!!!

I also got my 3 houses blueprint placed.  I don't clearcut my land- I cut about 5 trees total and placed the houses in the parameters of the space between trees.  I've seen some people go in and clearcut every tree on the property and believe me- it was U-G-L-Y!!!!!!!

The only complaint I have about the property is there is no water on it- There's a lake for fishing far away in a corner of the map, but on the property I own- nada..... Not a waterfall, not a creek, not a steam, brook or pond.

However- I CAN build myself a pool if I want. There isn't a blueprint for one- so I have to freestyle create it, but it can be done.

Anywho- Now I have the houses blueprint placed, I can place the barns for the animals.

Funny story... a couple years ago- I built a barn and a corral and walked to Bear country and shot at one and got it to chase me all the way back to the ranch....I went thru the barn and closed the doors behind me once I got outside and I had my friend waiting behind some trees so when the bear chased me into the barn she closed the corral gates and the bear was trapped in it- it was a fun hour or so of running up to the fence to make the bear go mental and chase us back and forth beside the fence. We finally let him loose tho- back into the world.... Hahahah!! 

As you can tell, I don't play games to level up or compete with anyone- I game on my own terms and make up my own rules. 

Isnt life so much more fun when you play by your own rules????? 

YOLO!!!!!!!

(Nope- still not ready to talk about WOW- and it got worse this morning... Work Related.)

Wow

 I mean just WOW......

I just gotta process this one before I write about it... but just WOW.

Not in a good way either.

I DID It!!!! And a Couple Other Things...

 I set up my new gaming laptop all by myself!!!! 

Only it took me 3 days to figure it out- but still- I DID IT!!!!

I ended up having to create a new email- and a new Microsoft account AND a new STEAM account because I couldn't  find/remember/retrieve  my info on either of them but still- I DID IT!!!

It's kind of a good thing I had to redo the Steam one tho because I had so many games on the old one I never played. I had no idea that if you played a bit and didnt like it you could get a refund on it if you were within the perimeters. 

So in the end I got my three fav ones- which cost me less than 20 bucks instead of the hundred plus I spent on them to begin with because they were having a MEGA sale on everything I wanted most!!!

I still haven't got my MINECRAFT back yet either. I couldn't find MINECRAFT JAVA anywhere so I suppose that will have to wait too.

 If you couldn't tell, I got my tax refund back and after a long consideration I got myself a new laptop.  My old one with a falling apart monitor that I brought from the UK was literally being held together by two rubber bands- one at the top of the screen and one at the bottom of the screen. I go to work everyday and do all the "adulting things" so I think maybe I was deserving of a big treat  of something I wanted but also needed.  I'm trying to start a little side hustle and a laptop is kind of a necessity for any business- large or mico-small..... 

Let me tell you- I was sweating bullets buying that thing tho. I went out to price them- not to buy one until I had slept on it another week or so- but the one I had decided was what I needed  before looking at prices was on sale at a really good price(a months rent plus 14 dollars OMG SERIOUSLY!!!!????) so after walking round the store with my daughter who was buying my granddaughter some clothes I decided to not be a big wuss and just go ahead and BUY the thing since it was on sale and prob wouldn't be in a week after I slept on it. 

The IT guy where I work told me they were pretty easy to set up providing I knew all my passwords and usernames and such.... which I thought I could retrieve from my old laptop- but no such luck. I was on my own.

I tried it the second day I had it- and got so frustrated I threw a good old fashioned hissy fit and then closed it up. Then it sat another day while I did a bit of research and got some more advice- and offers of help. But I had ranted about learning to do things on your own that you typically would hand over to a professional or at least someone who had done it before, so I persevered. I got up Saturday morning and daughter and I did a couple of errands, then got back home about 10:30am and I sat down and got to work after trying one more time to retrieve my account info and failing once again- I resorted to the obviously easier way to do it- I created the new accounts- and followed the instructions and did a lot of waiting. Didnt quite get everything done but close to it so Sunday morning I got up, made coffee and got started again with the Steam account and choosing my games and letting them all download.

Of course I had to play a couple hours of Ranch Simulator just to get to have my own Ranch and get it started. I went thru the tutorial and got that completed and purchased  a couple of animals for income for my Ranch and put new gates on the old barn to house them all.  Next go round will see me building a silo and a water well.

Only thing I was a bit put out about is the game now has a fishing experience mini game in it- and I went to purchase the Rod and reel and lures, and it would let me purchase the lures but not the rod & reel!!! CURSES!!!!!

Meh- it will be mine soon!!!

Anyway, instead of acting like most people who get their tax refunds back- I spent a bit of it and paid up all my bills that were due, but I put back a majority of it for a rainy day- ie- in case I need a car repair or in case I find my property for my family compound I have a nice down payment for it!!!! 

In other words, Last week I was well off- but this week I'm back to living paycheck to paycheck because I want my last item on my bucket list to come true!!!!