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That Took Forever....Cleaning it up.....

 

Well, after almost two entire months of working an hour or so every night to go thru over 300k emails to make sure I didn't delete anything important and deleting the rest- I'm finally finished.

That will NEVER happen again.

Now to download my books and work on them -and get at least ONE finished up before years end.

Saying Goodbyes

 Tomorrow is my last day at this job. You never know what life is going to hand you tho- so I'm saying my goodbyes today rather than tomorrow to all my favorite people who made me smile and gave me a little wave everyday and made my day feel not so long and tedious.  There are many. 

Sadly, I have actually cried today twice after doing so- in private of course, I don't want to appear unprofessional(I UGLY cry- not an ounce or inch of pretty to my sadness)....so I give a firm handshake and carry on with a see you around as we turn to leave.

However, there have been a handful who take the handshake and turn into a warm hug with a "we will really miss you!!" instead- which is perfectly fine with me as I am defo a hugger. 

August has always been a tough month for my family- for me especially at work on certain days. And this week is awful. 

Monday just was a sucky day altogether- nothing went right and by the end of the day I was to the point of walking off saying F-it- IDGAS ... and so I did. It was end of the day and clocking out I glanced away from the phone for literally ONE second and when I looked back it had gone to the home screen instead of the clock out page. I was like- wth- did the clock out go thru or not- the only way to tell absolutely was to log back in and if it clocked me out it would say I wasnt on schedule until- date/time.... but I was already aggravated and stressed and had HAD it..... so I just said above, put the phone down and left for the day.

Yesterday I got up, drove the 50 odd miles to work, forgot my lunch, and had zero amount to get any until my wages deposited into my bank account that afternoon... I pulled into the parking lot at work, let the windows down so it wouldn't suffocate/roast me when I got off work, and draped a towel over my steering wheel for the same reason. as I reached for the door handle to go clock in to work, I got a phone call from my eldest son saying he had been in an accident and could I meet him at the hospital.... so I ran in, told the Sergeant on duty I had a family emergency  and had to divert to the hospital... and I went back to the car. I shot off a quick voice clip to my boss letting him know and took off to my son........ and forgot to  click SEND to the voice clip.... two hours later I see a message from boss saying post was vacant(he prob thought I was just ditching work because it was my last days...-I would NEVER! Personal character and job ethic from my daddy in play there!)

I looked and sent another voice clip telling him I had send him a message explaining what was happening and apologised for forgetting to hit send on the first one. Understandable under the circumstances I think tho.... He(boss) said don't worry, just let him know if I wasnt going to make it in the next morning and he hoped son would be alright.....- He's hurt(My son)- but referred to a spine specialist...... Hopefully he will be fine in a few months.

Today would have been my mom's 90th Birthday. Missing her like crazy these days- even her ornery streak she liked to display on a quite regular basis...... Enough said about that.

Then tomorrow is my last day here at this job and I KNOW I'm going to miss these lovely people(except for a handful...there's always one or two that really just like to scrape on your nerves with a ragged dull spoon, isn't there?)  I don't make friends easily because- trust issues (Quality over Quantity I like to say)...... but here most everyone is just lovely down home good people. I will miss them.

On the 16th, my best friend(of almost 60 years) son passed away and her kids were like my kids brothers.... Bezzie and I did everything together on a parallel line... Our eldest two are only a year and a half apart...or middles were only 6 months apart, and our babies were 6 weeks apart.  They/We all grew up together and it was glorious times for me and her and our kids . Travis was the first of her kids to pass (Accidental OD), then a few years later it was her eldest (S I GS), then a couple years ago, her baby was murdered(Stabbing).  She also has lost her dad to covid during those years AND her fiance to a massive heart attack 3 weeks after her second son's passing.)I try to go spend time with her on those angel-versary days...

On August 26th 2007, I lost my youngest son to a MVA. I don't go to work that day, I don't eat that day- I don't get out of bed that day- I stay in bed and cry. I have tried a few times to go to work or get up and push thru the day- but it never works out. I fall to pieces that day. EVERY. SINGLE. ONE. I don't want to talk to anyone, I don't want to DO anything.  So I just don't.

So yeah- August is time for Saying Goodbyes... and it's hard no matter what the circumstances.

I just keep trying to convince myself that brighter days are ahead... New job with better benefits, Retirement funds starting in February.... hopefully finding a property to call our own rather than renting a place that the landlord isn't willing to fix when things go wrong with it..... Pay raises forthcoming, vacation days- no wait- PAID vacation days or PTO as they like to refer to paid vacation now..... Allowed overtime IF I want it!!! 

I can see a light at the end of the tunnel- it's tiny- but what I can see of it is bright!!!

(Sorry so long... I'm in a mood today, for sure.)

Getting Ready to Autumnize!!!!

 I can't believe the BER months are just a few short weeks away!!!

 If things go their usual way, September will start out with very little changes in the heat- but the nights will start becoming noticeably cooler. Then towards the middle of the month the days will start cooling off by 3 or so degrees every day until full chill factor is in effect for the daytime. 

Oh, I cannot wait!!!!

The cool crispness in the air- the smell of falling leaves after the color starts changing...... 

That's when I am in my element- jeans and boots, cozy sweaters, caramel and apples from our annual orchard visit (which we missed last year btw so this one will be doubly wonderful!!) Cinnamon Rolls for Sunday Brunch alongside the eggs and bacon and toast or biscuits. Apple pie just seems so much tastier in the autumn air, doesn't it?

I'm a bit ahead of my time already- I already put out my big autumn wreath on my front door last weekend. I was trying to trick my mind into believing the heat and humidity wasn't that bad. It might have worked- just for a few moments. I'll be resetting the front porch next weekend since my new boss decided to give me Friday as a PVD... first day there and It's a PTO day!! My God, I'm predicting I'm going to LOVE this job. 

Anyhow- so if you remember, I have a big dollhouse my sister gave me that last spring I redid into a dual season decor piece. Outside it's Autumn- painted black with all kinds of autumn touches to it... even though it's black, it's more autumn themed- I just add a few bits and pieces the couple of weeks before Halloween to make it scary Ish- then Nov 1st it goes back to just autumn until the weekend after Thanksgiving- then I open it up and it's full-on Christmas inside it!! I had so much fun working on that house!! 

I'd post photos, but I have got to figure out how to actually do that first. I'm so out of touch with how to do that kind of thing now. I need to get an SD card maybe?? I don't even know if this laptop has a slot for them... I'll have to look soon.

I also will be changing up my bedding colours and throws in the greatroom. 

Anyway, So I guess I'm going to get off here and go refuel my vehicle to get back and forth to my last days at my job next week. I'm just so utterly thrilled with the distance part of it!!  The rest of it- we will see how it goes-

...but so far- it's off to a GREAT start!!!!!

I just want to thank y'all who are happy for me and are supporting me with your kind words!!!  xoxo

Gah- Even More Changes!!!

 Well boss(present) called me today asking if I was at a point that I could break free and come have a talk with him. I said sure.

I then proceeded to pack all my personal  belongings into my Backpack because usually when you get called into the manager's office for a little chat- it rarely ends well for the "talkee". I was fully expecting to be told-"We're going to have to let you go today" and then be walked off property without being able to go back and gather my personal possessions from the office...I was fully prepared for that eventuality because I've had to execute that walk with other employees quite a few times in my career.

Well, I got to his office and turns out he just wanted to offer to let me go whenever was best for me- stated he had coverage if I wanted to make either today or next Thursday my last day on schedule instead of working out the whole two weeks notice. I declined today being the last day-, started to decline next Thursday as well just to be ornery- but then I thought to myself- "Self, Do I really want to cut off my nose to spite my face? Take the damn extra week instead of working the full notice, you dumbass."

So I did- and now I only have four days left to work instead of nine days! I contacted my future boss or my boss-in-waiting..lol. and he said that was fine- was actually glad to be getting  me a week ahead of schedule!!

So Good times!!

Changes Afoot!

 So yesterday I turned in my 2 weeks notice  at my job.

My boss was NOT expecting that.

At present I get up at 0445 to get dressed and drive 52 miles to work. Then I drive anywhere from 30-45 miles a day doing my actual job patrolling two different sites about 3 miles from each other. Gas prices plus wear and tear on my car is thru the roof for me.

At my present job, I get ZERO PTO/Vacation. Well saying that we can TAKE vacation days- but we take a hit in the wallet as it's not PAID vacation. We also don't get any help/offers on health and dental or life insurance. We are provided Uniforms, but we have to pay for our special footwear ourselves. Also, we have no help with the protective eyewear we are required to wear on the floor inside the facilities.  

One of the main reasons I'm leaving is my blood pressure has been steadily rising- and I'm ON BP medication and it's not doing a thing for it. That's the stress level I'm dealing with at the moment. Mainly that's because of a damn AI Monitor they have on the company vehicle. It hates me- and the feeling is mutual. I told my boss that it's a horrible idea because it only sees the numbers on incidents- it doesn't take into consideration human factors and it doesn't show rear views of vehicles hauling ass down the road behind you and almost rearending me because I'm slowing down to the seven mile an hour required for "approved cornering".  I told my family if I got killed while making a turn in that damn car that was grounds for a lawsuit. I don't approve of those monitors in vehicles- THEY are more distracting than anything else. heck- when I was wearing my compression glove for my arthritis in my wrist- every time I put my hand near my face the monitor screamed bloody murder that I was "DISTRACTED DRIVING!!!" because the glove was black it was reading it as a phone and phone usage in the company vehicle is a definite no-no and a fireable offense. I swear I get flagged at least a dozen times a week- one day a couple weeks ago I got flagged 6x in one DAY!!! And you get orange flagged for the distracted driving which includes eating, drinking, talking on a phone, seat belt unbuckled, looking at something outside the vehicle for more than two seconds-... I havent been flagged for the eating or drinking yet- I only do that when I'm fully stopped and in park, but the others I get flagged on regularly- even tho I dont do any of them!!!!! When she screams about the seatbelt one(at least twice a week, I just grab it at my shoulder and put it in FRONT of the damn camera so they can see that CLEARLY it IS ON correctly- then I mouth "effing idiot AI..." and look directly into the camera when doing so. 

The powers than send these clips to my boss have told him many times that mine are the most entertaining flags they get to watch. I'm glad someone is getting enjoyment out of them.... 

(Think GomerGober Pyle yelling Citizen's arrest!!! Citizen's Arrest!!! at Barney Fife and you have got how annoying getting flagged is....and when it screams at you in a dead silent car it scares the crap out of me.)

Any who- I'm going off on a tangent again- soz......

The new company is half the distance between where I live and where I WANT to move to soon as we can find affordable housing. It also offers PTO, All the insurances I mentioned (not sure about the footwear and vision stuff tho. But just gas and oil and wear and tear on my auto will more than make up for that.) I'm coming out better in the end. I'm moving from first shift to second shift but that's going to be a plus for reasons I can't explain on here at this time. LOL.... 

I am going to miss most of my peeps at the place I'm working now. There's a handful of special friends I've made too. 

There will be tears when I leave on the 13th. But we can stay in touch thru social media or phone. Right???

I'm actually quite excited about this next phase of my life. Quite Excited Indeed!!!

It's Happening!!!!

 Turned in my 2 weeks notice at work today!!

Changes are afoot...(but no- unfortunately I did NOT win the lottery.) 

Deets soon!!!!