<<<<(C-PAP Apparatus)I really do mean that- I'm not being sarcastic at all.
In response to Paulius' blog-post about my snoring.......
I don't LIKE my snoring either- it disturbs MY sleep as well as Paul's and I know on the occasions Paul snores it can be aggravating for the person not asleep- or woken up by the snoring. I also have horrible dreams on the nights I have bad snoring. Things like I'm drowning or I'm under the weight of a collapsed building and can't get out. Sometimes even if i'm having a good dream about Paul kissing me it turns into me not being able to break the kiss and me smothering and then I wake up gasping for air and I KNOW I've had a sleep apnea episode and I've been snoring and stopped breathing.
It's damn scary. Sometimes I'm afraid Paul is going to wake up one morning with me dead having stopped breathing sometimes in the night.
I know my weight has a LOT to do with my snoring. I'm losing it- but, God, it's going slowly.
I'm supposed to be using a C-Pap machine- but my insurance won't cover it and so I can't afford the 400 dollars a month they require for me to rent it.
I've had an offer of someone to buy it for me- but now in order to do that, I'll have to go for yet ANOTHER sleep study and get the doctor to write out another prescription for the machine- and all that will cost time away from work which I can't afford either.
And with the C-Pap machine comes even more problems. Those things are LOUD!!!
It's like having a wind machine next to your head. I don't know which is worse- the sound of snoring or the sound of the machine. Plus there's all those hoses and the face-mask you have to wear and if the hoses get pinched the machine sets off an alarm and wakes you up til it's fixed. There's also the condensation that occurs and it CAN get in your nose and throat and strangle you and that's one rude-awful way to wake up as well. And you can only sleep in one position and it's not a comfortable one at all and when you wake up you have all these marks on your face from the mask and hoses and they take a couple of hours to go way and for you to look normal again and not like some alien or someone into weird kink. It's horrible.
I never used to snore. Maybe just losing the weight will get rid of the problem. Until then, we'll just have to try and endure.
Maybe he won't divorce me before then.
:-P
