In Rememberance of Clayton.....

Three years ago -August 26th in the early morning- My baby boy, Clayton was taken from us in an auto accident.
I miss him just as much today as I did the day he left us. The pain of losing him has dulled, but never lessens.
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I Remember:
*When you were a baby the only way I could get you to nap was to rub your back and sing Amazing Grace to you til you fell asleep.
*When you were two , waking up to you and your brother leaning on the bed staring at me with a can of oysters in your little hands wanting Oyster Stew for breakfast and me telling you it took a LONG time to make O.Stew and getting you you eat a bowl of cereal while I boiled a pan of water, and THEN making your stew for lunch for you.
*You riding that Power-Wheels truck down the drive way with your hair flying back and the biggest smile in the world on your face because you loved "driving" fast. I remember being so scared I threw the truck in the dumpster and you crying to your big bubba,Frank, when he came home from kindergarden and him getting it out of the dumpster for you and promising me that he would make sure you didn't ride it down that steep hill anymore. And you didn't.
*You never left home without hugging and kissing me and telling me you loved me- even when you was mad at me.
*The week you and I BOTH had an allergic reaction when we ate some chocolate.
*Our trips to Gatlinburg and that there was nothing you didn't want to try.
*How you hated my "Christmas Stick" as you called my slim tree and how you said it just wasn't a "mama" tree and how I promised I would have a real tree from now on. I'll keep that promise baby boy, I'm sorry I ever bought that slim tree.
*When you called me and gave me the news you and Kathy were expecting.You were so nervous- and so excited at the same time. You would have been a fantastic daddy, Son. How could you have not been?
* When you bought Kathy's engagement ring. I don't think there was a moment you were more happy than when she said yes.
*How you and bubba used to cover for each other when y'all got in trouble. I tried not to punish y'all too much cause I never quite knew who REALLY did it.
*How you and Julie always wanted to open Christmas gifts on your December Birthdays. And so the tradition began of you could choose ONE from under the tree to open on your birthday. And y'all always waited til Your birthday on the 11th and all opened one together- even Frank because his birthday was in May and you never wanted him left out of anything you did. You were the best brother ever!
*Most of all I remember how you always gave me kisses and hugs no matter what age you were or how many of your friends were around and I remember your sweet voice and how you called me "Sweetie" instead of Mama.

For most of your life it had been you and me and Frank and Julie against the world. You were the rock baby boy and I don't know how we will learn to live without you. Our saving grace is that you will be in our hearts and memories all our lives and you will be there giving us direction and advice.

I love you, son. Be waiting for us when we come home to you.

Gateway.....Stuff.............

Paul introduced me to the game Munchkin last year. I loved it.

Last evening, he introduced me to Magic-The Game. I LOVE it!!

Gateway Drug(I mean GAME) to D & D, perhaps?
:-)
I hope so. I really enjoy being introduced to my husbands interests and finding out I LIKE, (or LOVE), them as well!!

And speaking of ........

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I'm really looking forward to recording our podcast this week. I got to choose the subject- and luckily I came up with a topic that Paul had already been thinking about doing for a while.
(Great minds and all that rubbish....)

I have LOTS of questions and I'm sure he can educate me.....er....us, I mean.

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Went to Greenwood yesterday and got my teefers relined. It was great- but....(you KNEW they'd be a BUT didn't you?)......now the lip of the denture that rides along my upper palate has rubbed a blister there. O-U-C-H.

So Friday it will be back down there to get them fixed and get my second set made.
They didn't want to make them for me til I asked for a partial refund...and then they changed their minds about my need for them. Good.

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Is it my imagination- or is it starting to,if not cool down a bit in temps, then maybe the humidity is going down a bit?
I mean, I have gone out several times in the ...GULP....SUNLIGHT over the past couple days and I can BREATHE without it searing my lungs!!! OMG- OMG!!! Autumn is on the way- I just KNOW it!!!!!!!!!

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Man I tell you, this has been a roller-coaster of a month for me.
I'm either crying my eyes out, or I'm laughing like a maniac.

Gah!!!!!

Is there no Middle Ground?

Wrong!!!

Laughing My Butt Off at Paul's recording on our Podcast site...


Placing the blame for no podcast this week SQUARELY on my shoulders!!!


No Soup For Paul!!!! Come Back- ONE YEAR!!!!!! LOL...Too Funny!!!!!


No- he really is sick- as you can hear from his voice- and altho I think his voice is still sexy, The coughing and sneezing and such...not so much. And I'm still coughing as well, so it IS best that we not try and do it this week....even if we felt better, I have to work the rest of the weekend, too.

Ugh- I'm SOOOOO ready for this week to be OVER, Already!!!

Awwwwwww, Darn.

Well, unless Paul decides to do a solo podcast- there won't be a new one this weekend. I have to pull FOUR twelve hour shifts in a row beginning Thursday night.
I COULD get up a couple hours early and us do one- but Paul still isn't feeling well PLUS we usually record them about 2 AM- when there's no trains going past every twenty minutes, and at that time I'll be in the middle of my shift at work. We recorded the last podcast about 10PM and we still had to stop three times in the hour it took to record it. And that SERIOUSLY threw off our rhythm even tho I think it's the best one we've done yet.

It's nice having something like that we do -and enjoy doing- together!

I'm hoping our friends MC & Michelle start doing one soon too! They been talking about it for a while and I really would like to hear them do one, even if it's on a bi-weekly or occasional schedule.

Speaking of...I need to go see if I can come up with MY topic for the next podcast.
Later Y'all!!!!

Update.....

Migraine Headache 95% gone.

I can live with that, so it's off to work with my bad self this evening!!!

HOT!!!! Hot!!!! Hot!!!!

Almost 4:30AM and it's (still/already)












here in South Carolina.

Dammitt- when is cool weather gonna get here, already???????
I'm ready for some weather I can wear some long pants and turtleneck sweaters in.

Re-Do!!!!

Three years ago I posted this after answering these questions. So I'm gonna do it again. today......My how time changes some things.

* What Was I Doing 10 Years Ago?
I was working as a Receptionist/Specialist at Lockheed Martin Employees Benefits Building..(ie- I was Security Receptionist there)

* What Was I doing 1 Year Ago?
I was doing about the same thing I am now- wondering how the hell I was going to get my Christmas shopping done on time with everything that was going on!!!

* What Was I Doing Yesterday?
I was trying to get a bit more enthusiastic about doing a podcast after being sick for a week. Little did i know it was going to be the most fun of the ones we have done so far!!

* 5 Snacks I Enjoy
1-snow cream
2-pound cake
3-Subway Oven Roast Chicken Sammiches- toasted, with provolone cheese, Lettuce, olives, Parmesan, & lite mayo. I could eat those every single DAY!!!!
4-baked chips
5-fruit

*5 things I Would Do If I Won 100 Million Dollars
1-get my debt paid up and my credit straight
2-buy a car
3-buy a moderate house with a pool
4-Help my kids out a bit
5-set up a fund and build a homeless shelter with a kitchen

*5 Locations I Would Like To Run Off To
1-Montana
2-the Bahamas
3-Great Britain
4-A remote cabin in the Blue Ridge mountains
5-A remote deserted Island with all the amenities

*5 Bad Habits I Have
1-telling people to shut up...I've never liked that phrase but find myself saying it when I'm extremely frustrated now
2-emotional/stress eating
3-apologizing for laughing..I have no idea why.
4-expecting the best of people/trusting too much
5-thinking before speaking.

*5 Things I Like Doing
1-taking long rides in the car
2-baking
3-reading
4-cuddling & talking with my hubby
5-taking pics and playing on PICASA

*5 TV Shows I Like
1-Army Wives
2-True Blood
3-M.A.S.H.
4-Biggest Loser
5-DEXTER(on Showtime)

*5 Things I Hate
1-loud engines revving,lawn-mowers and loud music when I'm trying to sleep
2-couples arguing in public
3-parents who don't discipline their kids
4-bad table manners
5-having a migraine

*5 Biggest Joys Of The Moment
1-Looking forward to my first visit EVER out of the USA!!!!
2-having a very supportive and understanding husband who loves me and isn't afraid to show me.
3-Having a job
4-Having lost 50 lbs and still losing!!
5-having good friends who listen-(I have the BEST friends ever!!)