I Swore It Would Never Be.....

When I was growing up, my mom's family was forever squabbling about something or other. We could never have a family get together without half the family refusing to come because they were on the outs with someone else because of something that had been said or done. And God forbid the two factions come and be in the same room/vicinity together. There were fist-fights and fusses and arguments and even a couple of incidents of guns and/or knives being involved. Luckily, none were ever used- but there was some very close calls.
I used to remember my stomach being in knots whenever we would go to any get-together with them because you never knew what was going to happen with the warring factions that day.
And I swore that when I had a family, it would never be like that. Yet, here I sit today, with my stomach in knots, crying, because of the warring factions in my own family.
And it started out slowly, with one member of the elders giving enough drama to keep things in an uproar. Then it became a couple more incidents and a couple more people.
And now- my own immediate family has recently began the slow decent.

Am I to live my entire life with this curse?
What did I do to deserve the hell of being caught in the middle of all this upset? I can see everyone's side. And I'm being pulled into the middle of it all.
I deleted my Facebook account and my MySpace accounts about 2AM this morning because of all the drama.
I can't deal with it. I'm on the edge of having a breakdown already and these situations aren't helping me at all.
I'm not willing to relay messages back and forth between the about 10 people who have issues with each other and aren't speaking, nor do I want to know who's doing who- or what anyone said that pissed someone else off. My heart cannot deal with the fact that these people I love so much are so upset with each other, and they want me to referee.

I refuse. I love them all too much to choose sides. As I said- I see all sides and I hurt for everyone. Especially me who is hurting more than all of them combined.

PLEASE-PLEASE-PLEASE.......If you love me- Just LEAVE me OUT of all of it!!!!

Hopes For The New Year

I hope for less stress.
I hope for more wealth.
I hope to move into a place that doesn't leak when it rains and is warm in the winter and cool in the summer and has a tub big enough to actually take a BATH in.
I hope the people I love can find good jobs.
I hope to be more thrifty.
I hope to FINALLY be able to lose this excess weight.
I hope to be wiser.
I hope the drama stops.

I wish for happiness and serenity for everyone.

That's Just Wrong!!!!

Okay.... so Paul was wanting me to play his stupid game with him and we was like, playing, and I was, like, getting to, like, blow stuff up and I was, like, having a LOT of fun running those guys down and watching them fly across the fields when my missiles hit them, and just because I wasn't paying attention to where his avatar was at and covering his ass and he got killed a dozen or so times because I was killing guys a half mile away from him....he laughed at me and put it away.

That's just SO wrong.....
:-D

Poor Baby....

As you know if you read Paul's blog, we got a new kitten on the 23rd.

She's such a sweetheart. She's been quiet as a mouse and extremely meek and mellow for a 3 month old kitten. She's a very cuddly, lovey kitten.

Well, turns out there's a very good reason she's been so mellow. She's sick with a horrible cold. Her sister had a bad one when we was looking at them and apparently she caught it from Noelle before we brought her home.

I called one of my best friends who is a long-time cat owner and she said the one time her kitties got a cold she ground up a Vitamin C tablet and sprinkled about a third of it in their wet food and they got over it in a couple days. She also added that she didn't know if that was because of the vitamin C tabs or just a happy co-incidence, but that's what worked for her babies.

I just hope Logan doesn't get it from Lucy. I guarantee he won't be a sweet mellow kitty if he gets a cold- he'll be the whiny, grumpy old man from Hades. I don't want either of them sick.....

BTW- can humans catch a cold from a cat? Just askin'..........

Wow.

Just a couple/three pics of the family at Christmas.
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I was so afraid that this Christmas was going to be a bust.
So much going on lately and most of it not good.

..........................................Happily, I was wrong.

Our Christmas Eve Family Get together was absolutely awesome!! Everyone didn't get to make it, but it was still a wonderful get-together for those who were able to get there.

It was very laid back and relaxed, with lots of love and happiness abounding. We laughed, we shared memories- and we made new ones. A you can see from the pics- we are a very Gadget oriented family- everyone except me and the kids had their camera or phone or in some cases BOTH taking as many pics as possible!! It was great!!

Santa came Christmas Eve night and this morning, Paul and I woke up, opened prezzies and ate a quiet calm breakfast together. Then I napped a couple hours while Paul played the new Xbox game Santa brought him.

Then I woke up, and cooked the T-Bone steaks I had bought for us, along with mashed potatoes and gravy and rolls....... and a bit of the leftover Broccoli casserole Paul had made for the Eve-do. He made it from KBs recipe with a couple of adjustments and I have to say it's the best Broccoli casserole I have EVER put in my mouth! Excellent!!

Anyway, I'm working tonight, so as you can see- I'm trying to keep myself busy. Usually we have quite a few people here, but everyone is gone for the holiday weekend and there's a whole lot of nothing to do when there's no one here but me. Easy weekend for me with my duties so light- but a lonely one as well.

I've said a few prayers recently and asked for quite a few more from friends and family and most of my prayers have been answered.

It seems Christmas Miracles really DO still come true!
I am Blessed.

Twas The Night Before Christmas.....

....and all thru the house........

The decorating is done, the cooking went surprisingly smoothly and is finished, the gifts are wrapped and under the tree, the house smells heavenly and the rest of my kids are on their way in a couple hours!!
Frank is already here and he and Paul are watching Paul's special Christmas movie....Star Wars(*rolls eyes*)....and they are snacking on Chex Mix- a Christmas staple in my family. The tree is twinkling away and Christmas music is playing in the kitchen.

We don't have any snow on the ground, but it finally, finally, Finally FEELS like Christmas to me!!!




MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!!

It's Getting Closer.....

Christmas is almost here.

So why am I not more excited?
Instead I'm getting more and more nauseous.
This is wrong. Just plain WRONG!

What is going ON? I don't understand.