This afternoon we sit here in my humble abode- it's chilly and just a bit uncomfortable.
As
he was reaching for the fleece throw, I asked the hubby why he didn't turn
the heat on. He said because it's "expensive" and the only reason he was
cold was because he had just "walked home in the cold rain from the
dentist appointment." I thought about that answer- and asked him then why
was I cold because I certainly did not walk home from work in the cold
rain. He said that I was always cold and as an "American" I had no
tolerance for mild discomfort.
I beg to differ.
It
has nothing whatsoever to do with the fact I may or may not be an
"American".
It has to do with the fact that I have lived my entire life
in some sort of discomfort. Getting up before the break of dawn to build a fire in
the heater or fireplace to wash and dry my hair before going out in the
cold to stand and wait on the school bus to spirit me away to a school
that was almost equally as cold first thing in the morning..... And so
my little brothers and sisters could get up into a decently warm
house(or at least a warm kitchen and family room) instead of shaking
and shivering the 30 minutes while waiting for the fire to be built and
the room to get warm.
It comes from not having A/C most of my life- of
sweating and being miserable in the heat and humidity of the Southern
Summers. Of having to rely on a fan in the window to pull in a bit of
whatever air was outside to at least get a breeze until we got ceiling
fans for each room and of lying in the bed at night with our faces in
the window because it was so hot at night in the summertime you couldn't
breathe if you didn't.
It comes from the early adult lean years
when every spare penny of my cash went to feeding and clothing my babies
when we had next to nothing because of- circumstances. Of going door to
door asking the neighbors if they needed any yard-work done and then
working til dusk on my own while the babies played in the yard while I
did it, because I needed to buy formula or diapers or clothes for my
little ones because of-circumstances. Of buying pre-loved toys and
making then like new for them for Christmas because I'd rather stay home
with them and enjoy those precious moments making memories growing up
than go to work and miss out of those moments and be able to buy a load
of crap they wont remember when they grow up. Ask my kids what they
remember about Christmas at our house- I've rarely heard them mention
what they got except for just a couple of really special gifts- but they
can tell you all about how things looked and smelled and sounded and
how those things now remind them of their Christmases at home.
So
no- it's most certainly not because I have no tolerance for
discomfort- it comes from deprivation and hardships and struggle- and
now that I am older and able to pay for those simple creature comforts- I fully
intend to have them and never deprive myself of them again.
I've earned it- and refuse to have it any other way.
End Of.
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