...has got up and left.
I'm just so exhausted and UNMOTIVATED this week.....heck= to be honest the entire month has been a bust for me. I have a ton of things I need to do- and have been working on (halfheartedly), but whereas I usually am the organized, OCD one who does the motivating, I fear that bird has flown.
I've decided to do a proper YouTube channel for my videos- altho I have serious reservations about it. I wish I could do a podcast without the visual part of it. I hate the way I look....I used to do modeling for Christ-sake... now I just feel like a beached whale- and altho I do feel better about myself than I have in years- and am trying to make improvements, I dont feel confident in my appearance yet.
I've asked one of my chosen sisters to join me in the Vlog, because after seeing my solo performance on my blog, I think we will talk about some interesting topics and our discussions will be so much more entertaining than my boring monologues are.
We have made up a nice list of things to discuss. So that's one thing I've been working on.... also my eating plan is alternately working/not working....August is awfully stress filled for me and if I stress, I dont lose no matter what I do.
I'm still plugging away at it tho. I'm not giving up. Not by a long shot.
I have my trip home I'm planning for. Trying to cut back on my spending, and I'm putting back the cash I would have spent on other purchases for exchange for my spending money home.
Brexit really put a hurting on the exchange rate- but I've still got a couple of months and am hoping that particular situation will improve before I leave.
I have a library of books I've bought up over the past couple of years- and I've splurged on an Audible subscription.... I get one credit a month for subscribing and I have a half dozen audio books so far and I LOVE it. I do tend to have to listen when I go to bed, and I usually fall asleep after an hour and then have to backpedal an hour the following night, but that's neither here nor there. I love being read TO.
My latest read is a series of books called Surviving The Evacuation by Frank Tayell. Book 1 is a first person story of the evacuation of London after a Zombie Virus Outbreak.
At first I thought, "Oh here we go- another Zombie story", but it did have some interesting changes- such as the main character is alone instead of with a group....... well, so far anyway. I'm not sure what happens in the rest of the series, but I'm going to be finding out in the next few months!!!
I'm glad this week is almost over. I do live for my weekends now. And Autumn with it's lovely cool weather and beautiful colors and smells.
Roll on Autumn.