Who Knew?

For the past couple months, I've been playing a simple online crop harvest game.
Now it's begun having some serious lag issues due to it's popularity.

Who knew such a simple point and click game would gain such popularity with everyone so quickly?
It says a lot about our society when we all want to play such a uncomplicated game. One that you can pick up and put down with ease without losing points or there being any sort of major consequences to your game or there being any sort of major complications getting started again.
The only thing you have to do is play- time and experience-and not very much of that- levels you up on a fairly regular basis. And the real fun of it is how creative you can be with your land. Some are simple squares.....others have a more complicated pattern, some have very intricate patterns, but some are just random plots placed her and there about the land......no thought gone into it at all except just to have fun.

The avatars arent anything but cartoony clones. There are a dozen hairstyles to choose from, the eye colors are normal colors, and the clothes are all the same...bib overalls and a non-descript shirt. It looks like dozens and dozens of sets of twins running about...........
You can be creative with your land name- and your avatars name. But that's it.

It's a calm, relaxing, game that you can spend playing a few minutes- or 6 hours if you want to stand around and wait to be hired to harvest someone elses crops.
Love it.

To Be....Or Not To Be........

I've lead a full life. I regret few things in my life because I am what I am....either in spite of what my life has been like- or because of it. It's debatable to say the least.
But every once in a while, I hear something that makes me wonder.....what have I DONE with my life. Was it enough.......Could I have done it better somehow.

At the times, I did what I thought I had to do to get by, while waiting and hoping that something would come along to make it all fall into place. And neither of my life goals actually came to pass.
I wanted to become a runway model, something I actually did for a while during high school but was denied by my parents when my chance came to actually take a job with an agency during my last two summers at home. I also loved to draw houses(I think that's where Clay got his talent of it from) and wanted to become an architect. But becoming a parent put that dream aside too. And I finally decided I wanted to become a security consultant and began school for that- but along the way I decided to home-school my boys. Homeschooling AND a full time(14 hour) workday put that on the back burner. So the 14 hour workdays were too much and so I "settled" for a job working for a security company. And I've been working with this company now since 1983 off and on......the latest stint for the last 7 years straight.

I received my pin and service certificate last night at work.

It's been a long road....at first having to take on call jobs whenever anyone called off for various reasons...a day here- a day there, some in really posh places, some in the middle of nowhere with nothing to look at except an empty building or a field....sometimes even with no bathroom facility for miles. But as I gained somewhat of a reputation for being "the girl" who could handle any job and be relied upon, I began getting more permanent job sites lasting a few weeks to a few months each. And finally I was offered a permanent site. And when the head honcho(basically a company troubleshooter) moved on to another site, he would request me to follow him and work with him to get the site in ship shape. And I thought I was good at what I did.

But then the troubleshooter joined a group, comparable to the military, and went overseas and I was on my own in the company where I quickly realized why my honcho had left......the benefits did NOT represent the headaches. My hands were tied at so many levels....all the bureaucracy
was a weight on my mind, so, with mine and my parents declining health problems, I decided to go back to being a regular officer while waiting for something better to come along. And here I've been, all this time, just living my life..... letting it flow day after day after day, hoping for bigger and better to come along, but doing what needed to be done til that time came. And altho , as I have told you before, I have a degree and certificates in various things, I kept doing the security/law enforcement jobs.

But a comment I heard made me dead stop and think..........have I just wasted my life? Should I have had more pride and not done what I did to get by, but waited and toughed it out until my "Dream Job" came along? I don't usually THINK so, until I think maybe to others my life does look like a wasted throwaway and I didn't care enough to try harder.

It makes me sad to think I could have done better but threw it all away just "doing what needed to be done" at the time.

...but then again, would I be here today had I not done things the way I did?

*Sigh....*

I am SOOOO getting a headache.

Our Camping Experience.

We went camping.
There was a bear.
We came home.
It was an awesome trip.

Update.....

Julie's surgery went fine. She's home resting comfortably now.

My doc visit went fine, but because of cancer history in my family, has recommended a procedure for later in July.

We're out and about for the weekend.

ZEBCO 33

In my opinion one of the best overall fishing rods EVER made.

My friend KayDee at work suggested we get together and go fishing soon, declaring she just got a brand new Fishing pole.

"REALLY?" I asked. My excitement showing as I saw the potential for a female friend who knew about and actually LIKED fishing.

"YES!!!" she said.

"What kind is it?" I asked.

She leaned forward, her eyes shining with excitement as she declared....."It's a PINK one!!!!!"

*Giggle*

Further and Further Away

Well, once again, Paul and I made a trip to the ER yesterday afternoon.

I won't tell you any of the gory details, only to say that I wish there hadn't been a reason to go.

With each visit an ocean grows, putting distance between me and the two things I want most in this world.
I have given serious thought to refusing any more treatments of any kind, stopping all my meds, and refusing to go to any doctor's visits until my heart stops beating.
Just living my life without all the hassle of going in to the doctors and them finding something else wrong with me every visit and then having to go to yet another doctor...over and over again, ad-nauseam..... maybe then all my money won't be going to damn doctors and damn meds.

I don't know- I'm just in a mood.
I'm still kinda weirded out by everything that's happened in the past couple days.
I'll think on it some more and make a decision later.
Some days I hate being me.