Do you believe in signs from beyond?
I do.
I've always been warned or forewarned about certain events that are about to happen in my life.
I can tell you who is calling on the phone before I answer it...9 times out of 10 I'm right.
I have premonitions and dreams about things that happen a few days-weeks-months or even years later.....
Every time I've been in an auto accident I've seen or noticed 10 times the usual amount of commercials or PSA on TV or the radio warning or cautioning about "buckling up" or about reviewing my life insurance coverage.
True to form- after a few weeks of this I'd be involved an auto accident.
Every time anyone I know gets pregnant all I hear about or see on TV is baby clothes- baby shampoo- baby food or pregnancy tests advertised for a couple months before I find out about it.
I can also tell if someone is pregnant if I am around them because my ulcer kicks into high gear and I throw up from the pain. I've actually told my sisters they were preggers before they even knew.
Every time I've had a new job offer I've seen signs or adverts for education or new career choices over and over again for weeks before I receive the job offer/s.
Which brings me to the present........ and I'm beginning to get really freaked out.
For the past few months I've been seeing-or just noticing- a steady increase in the adverts for life insurance coverage. I've also received a few mailings from several funeral homes pertaining to funeral pre-arrangements.
Now, part of this I can understand and explain away as pure and utter coincidence. I DID inquire a couple YEARS ago about funeral pre-arrangements- when my daddy started getting sick again he urged us all to get our affairs in order and so I made a few inquiries to put his mind at ease- but that was AGES/YEARS ago. And also, I figure I would notice the life insurance ads more since Dads passing and his birthday being tomorrow and all. It would just be natural....right?
Still, while I can come up with a plausible explanation for this, past experience with "SIGNS" makes me more than just a little wary of it all.
Wouldn't you be?
At any rate- I'm taken care of in all the arrangements and coverage except for the "specific" details. I know what they are- Paulius and I have discussed the details- I just have yet to make the financial pre-arrangements so he wouldn't have to deal with any of it.
I DO need to take care of that.....just to be on the safe side.....don't you think?
Am I being overly sensitive about all this? Or do you think I have valid reasoning to be just a tiny bit concerned?
I don't want to be overly concerned about it and WORRY- but if the pattern fits...... I can't HELP but worry.
Bleh........
A Peek Into The Misadventures of My Crazy Upside-Down Life.
Tuesday, May 30, 2006
Saturday, May 27, 2006
I really miss my daddy.
I never quite realized how much I relied on him.
All of us did- but I can only speak for myself.
I visited the cemetery today- and completely lost it there.
My daddy was my rock. he was the person I went to for everything when things were just too much to deal with. Take a problem to Daddy and he would fix it.
Need a break and want someone to keep the kids while I go for an hours ride or be able to take a two hour bubble-bath without having to get up 15 times to take care of a fuss or complaint from the kids- "Sure, hon, Daddy'll keep them occupied."
Need a car to drive to work because your battery is dead as a doornail or because you need a new motor? "Sure, Honey- here are the keys- and tomorrow after you wake up we'll go get a new battery or motor on my charge card and you can pay me back later."
"Why do you need to borrow my circular saw? To build shutters for the house? Sure, baby girl- do you need me to show you how to use it? Oh? You know already? Okay...."
and showing up there less than an hour later to make sure I'm okay and to marvel at how I really DO know how to use the saw and how he had never seen shutters like I was making.
Fuss with the siblings? Daddy would tell us how important it was to make up and be sweet to each other because we would always be siblings and how someday we would only have each other to lean on.
Daddy would tell us stories about his days at sea as a naval serviceman. All about his friends and what his job entailed on the aircraft carrier.
He would go out in the freezing cold or the pouring rain or the 100 degree weather to make a living for his family during his days as a railroad man. And never complained. And never was out but two days being sick.
Daddy gave and gave and gave and never complained about it- he only wanted the best for his family and tried his best to give it to us. Even after we were grown. And we didn't fully realize what a wonderful blessing he was. I always thought of my daddy as my hero and always appreciated everything he did for us all- but I never realized how close to a saint he was. He had his faults- don't think I didn't notice them, I did- but he was as close to perfect as one could wish for. He gave us unconditional love- even when we didn't deserve it.
I miss him so much. I miss his hugs- and his smiles. He was always so glad to see us when we came to visit him and mom.
Wednesday would have been his 76th birthday. For his 70th we threw him a HUGE surprise party/cookout. He was so surprised- and he loved every minute of it.
Some days I just want my Daddy.
I never quite realized how much I relied on him.
All of us did- but I can only speak for myself.
I visited the cemetery today- and completely lost it there.
My daddy was my rock. he was the person I went to for everything when things were just too much to deal with. Take a problem to Daddy and he would fix it.
Need a break and want someone to keep the kids while I go for an hours ride or be able to take a two hour bubble-bath without having to get up 15 times to take care of a fuss or complaint from the kids- "Sure, hon, Daddy'll keep them occupied."
Need a car to drive to work because your battery is dead as a doornail or because you need a new motor? "Sure, Honey- here are the keys- and tomorrow after you wake up we'll go get a new battery or motor on my charge card and you can pay me back later."
"Why do you need to borrow my circular saw? To build shutters for the house? Sure, baby girl- do you need me to show you how to use it? Oh? You know already? Okay...."
and showing up there less than an hour later to make sure I'm okay and to marvel at how I really DO know how to use the saw and how he had never seen shutters like I was making.
Fuss with the siblings? Daddy would tell us how important it was to make up and be sweet to each other because we would always be siblings and how someday we would only have each other to lean on.
Daddy would tell us stories about his days at sea as a naval serviceman. All about his friends and what his job entailed on the aircraft carrier.
He would go out in the freezing cold or the pouring rain or the 100 degree weather to make a living for his family during his days as a railroad man. And never complained. And never was out but two days being sick.
Daddy gave and gave and gave and never complained about it- he only wanted the best for his family and tried his best to give it to us. Even after we were grown. And we didn't fully realize what a wonderful blessing he was. I always thought of my daddy as my hero and always appreciated everything he did for us all- but I never realized how close to a saint he was. He had his faults- don't think I didn't notice them, I did- but he was as close to perfect as one could wish for. He gave us unconditional love- even when we didn't deserve it.
I miss him so much. I miss his hugs- and his smiles. He was always so glad to see us when we came to visit him and mom.
Wednesday would have been his 76th birthday. For his 70th we threw him a HUGE surprise party/cookout. He was so surprised- and he loved every minute of it.
Some days I just want my Daddy.
Friday, May 26, 2006
REALLY Annoying Things.......
1-Cartoon music blasting at 3/4 volume at 7AM when you've been up all night and want to do nothing more than have a bit of peace and quiet to relax. Why do parents let their kids watch that drivel that is supposed to pass as "educational animation" nowadays?
It's Brain-rot. Pure and simple BRAINROT!
2-People who wear flip-flops to public buildings like doctors offices and hospitals and feel the need to slap them loudly as the walk. Since when is beachwear acceptable attire for the general public?
3-Women who wear hollow-heeled shoes and walk across ceramic tile floors. OMG- Can they want any more attention than that?
4-Bad Table Manners. For God's sake- you hold your flatware/silverware somewhat in a grip somewhat like you would a pen or pencil when you are writing. A fork or spoon shouldn't be held in your fist like it's a shovel or a scoop. And chew with your mouth CLOSED. Nobody- least of all me- wants to see your chewed up food dropping all over the table or your lap or being spewed all over whoever happens to be the unlucky person you aim your talking to. Talk or eat- one at a time.
5-When you go out of your way to do something for someone who really needs help with a problem and they act like you owe it to them and then they change their minds about what you helped them with and act like it was really no big thing that they changed their mind. Maybe not to them it wasn't- but I had other things that could have been done had I not taken the time and money to help out. I DO remember things like that NEXT time, too.
6-When people promise to do something and then they forget. And then they remember and put it off for even longer just because they don't feel the need for it to be done when they said they would do it. It doesn't matter- you agreed to do it at a certain time to get what you wanted out of the deal- you can't renege on or put off a promise like that after you have gotten what you want or need. It's a give and take deal. Just DO it.
7-Being ignored. Also along that line- wanting or needing a hug or a cuddle and not being able to get one because it's an "inconvenient or inappropriate time" or because the other person just can't be bothered at the moment.
8-Being excited about something and everyone else thinking it's stupid to be that happy about it.
9-Someone doing something completely sweet and wonderful for me and me being in a bad mood and either not noticing or not showing my appreciation of/for what they did. I hate when it happens to me- but I hate more doing that to someone else.
10-Extenuating circumstances that make me feel bad about saying no to a request. Saying yes is bad- having to say no is worse tho.
11-Overweight people in tight clothes- spandex in particular. Three words people....
JUST SAY NO!!!!!
12- Skinny people who know you're on a diet and sit in front of you and eat four helpings of all the things you can't have and talk incessantly about how they can eat anything they want and not again an ounce. I have one thing to say to you people who do that to me-..
"RUN!!!!!! Because you will be wearing some of that food if you keep it up on one of my really bad days."
13- People who bitch about crappy stuff other people do all the time. Nobody wants to hear that drivel, so zip it.
It's Brain-rot. Pure and simple BRAINROT!
2-People who wear flip-flops to public buildings like doctors offices and hospitals and feel the need to slap them loudly as the walk. Since when is beachwear acceptable attire for the general public?
3-Women who wear hollow-heeled shoes and walk across ceramic tile floors. OMG- Can they want any more attention than that?
4-Bad Table Manners. For God's sake- you hold your flatware/silverware somewhat in a grip somewhat like you would a pen or pencil when you are writing. A fork or spoon shouldn't be held in your fist like it's a shovel or a scoop. And chew with your mouth CLOSED. Nobody- least of all me- wants to see your chewed up food dropping all over the table or your lap or being spewed all over whoever happens to be the unlucky person you aim your talking to. Talk or eat- one at a time.
5-When you go out of your way to do something for someone who really needs help with a problem and they act like you owe it to them and then they change their minds about what you helped them with and act like it was really no big thing that they changed their mind. Maybe not to them it wasn't- but I had other things that could have been done had I not taken the time and money to help out. I DO remember things like that NEXT time, too.
6-When people promise to do something and then they forget. And then they remember and put it off for even longer just because they don't feel the need for it to be done when they said they would do it. It doesn't matter- you agreed to do it at a certain time to get what you wanted out of the deal- you can't renege on or put off a promise like that after you have gotten what you want or need. It's a give and take deal. Just DO it.
7-Being ignored. Also along that line- wanting or needing a hug or a cuddle and not being able to get one because it's an "inconvenient or inappropriate time" or because the other person just can't be bothered at the moment.
8-Being excited about something and everyone else thinking it's stupid to be that happy about it.
9-Someone doing something completely sweet and wonderful for me and me being in a bad mood and either not noticing or not showing my appreciation of/for what they did. I hate when it happens to me- but I hate more doing that to someone else.
10-Extenuating circumstances that make me feel bad about saying no to a request. Saying yes is bad- having to say no is worse tho.
11-Overweight people in tight clothes- spandex in particular. Three words people....
JUST SAY NO!!!!!
12- Skinny people who know you're on a diet and sit in front of you and eat four helpings of all the things you can't have and talk incessantly about how they can eat anything they want and not again an ounce. I have one thing to say to you people who do that to me-..
"RUN!!!!!! Because you will be wearing some of that food if you keep it up on one of my really bad days."
13- People who bitch about crappy stuff other people do all the time. Nobody wants to hear that drivel, so zip it.
Wednesday, May 24, 2006
Happy Birthday!!!!
Joyously Announcing The Birth Of:
Charles Nicholas Howe
7 lbs/ 9 oz
May 23rd, 2006 at 10:30 in the evening.
Our 4TH Grandson!
Happy Birthday Nick!
(Who will otherwise be known as "Dexter" since that's what his 5 year old brother, Devon, insists on calling him altho his parents have been equally insistent that the baby will NOT be even nicknamed "Dexter".)
We'll see.
He'll just be St. Nick to me.
:-D
Charles Nicholas Howe
7 lbs/ 9 oz
May 23rd, 2006 at 10:30 in the evening.
Our 4TH Grandson!
Happy Birthday Nick!
(Who will otherwise be known as "Dexter" since that's what his 5 year old brother, Devon, insists on calling him altho his parents have been equally insistent that the baby will NOT be even nicknamed "Dexter".)
We'll see.
He'll just be St. Nick to me.
:-D
Monday, May 22, 2006
Summers Here-Like It Or Not!
Yes- Summer is DEFINATELY here now.
The temps are rising steadily along with the humidity percentage. I hate hot sticky weather- I've lived in the South all my life and I'm still not used to the humidity.
Also signaling the start of summer season is the fact we had our Coyle Family Reunion yesterday- Every year- the Sunday after Mother's Day.
I only get to see these cousins and aunts and uncles once a year- unless there is a special event- such as a wedding or funeral- Lord bless 'em.
I love that side of the family- they are down to earth, God-fearing, simple mountain folk who love to live life- work hard- and have fun.
They are also the loud, obnoxious, fun group of people who I can't be around for more than a few hours at a time. They wind me up and I get hyper for DAYS after being around them.
I love them to death- but they just produce this ...energy....that if harnessed, could power the entire state for a month after we all got together.
Maybe it's something the Dept of Energy should look into.
We had food out the wazoo. If there is one thing those women(and more recently even the men) know how to do(besides voice their opinion and make it stick as the gospel truth) it's cook.
Just a few of the things we had on those groaning tables....
5 types chicken- all deep fried and seasoned differently- (Why, SOMEONE cheated and brought KFC chicken. I don't envy them when we find out who did THAT. The only time store bought food is acceptable is when you have an illness in the family or if you come straight from your job.People take it as they aren't important enough to you to actually take time to COOK decent food if you just stop by the store and BUY it.)
All kids of veggies-
fried & breaded okra
broccoli casserole
creamed corn
3 different kinds of potato salad
corn on the cob
fried corn
speckled butter-beans
3 different kinds of mac & cheese pie(my sister Tees was the BEST- 6 pounds of 3 different cheeses in it- no joke)
3 types green beans
2 types baked beans
fried fat-back
fired sausages
turkey
ham
2 types meatloaf
spaghetti-bake
slaw
rolls
garlic sticks
Biscuits
corn muffins
Desserts included-
chocolate eclair pie
orange Watergate salad
pineapple upside-down cake
2 kinds apple pie
white cupcakes w/ chocolate frosting
cherry cheesecake
lemon meringue pie
pineapple fluff-angel food cake
banana pudding
spice cake with cream-cheese frosting
I know I haven't listed it all- but who can remember all that?
I am on a diet and had said I was going to allow myself one bite of anything and everything I wanted as a treat.
Yeah- Right. Let's just say I haven't been bad like that for over 5 years and leave it.
Once in a five year period can be overlooked, tho. I am back on track now, tho- and despite being BAD- I still lost 2 lbs last week. It may show back up at next months weigh in- but hopefully not.
(I only weigh myself every two weeks now, so it's much less traumatic if I have a gain and it's easier to deal with knowing I have two weeks to get a gain off instead of the every week thing that is so popular right now with all the weight programs)
Anyway. Like I said- Summer is definitely here.
Again.
The temps are rising steadily along with the humidity percentage. I hate hot sticky weather- I've lived in the South all my life and I'm still not used to the humidity.
Also signaling the start of summer season is the fact we had our Coyle Family Reunion yesterday- Every year- the Sunday after Mother's Day.
I only get to see these cousins and aunts and uncles once a year- unless there is a special event- such as a wedding or funeral- Lord bless 'em.
I love that side of the family- they are down to earth, God-fearing, simple mountain folk who love to live life- work hard- and have fun.
They are also the loud, obnoxious, fun group of people who I can't be around for more than a few hours at a time. They wind me up and I get hyper for DAYS after being around them.
I love them to death- but they just produce this ...energy....that if harnessed, could power the entire state for a month after we all got together.
Maybe it's something the Dept of Energy should look into.
We had food out the wazoo. If there is one thing those women(and more recently even the men) know how to do(besides voice their opinion and make it stick as the gospel truth) it's cook.
Just a few of the things we had on those groaning tables....
5 types chicken- all deep fried and seasoned differently- (Why, SOMEONE cheated and brought KFC chicken. I don't envy them when we find out who did THAT. The only time store bought food is acceptable is when you have an illness in the family or if you come straight from your job.People take it as they aren't important enough to you to actually take time to COOK decent food if you just stop by the store and BUY it.)
All kids of veggies-
fried & breaded okra
broccoli casserole
creamed corn
3 different kinds of potato salad
corn on the cob
fried corn
speckled butter-beans
3 different kinds of mac & cheese pie(my sister Tees was the BEST- 6 pounds of 3 different cheeses in it- no joke)
3 types green beans
2 types baked beans
fried fat-back
fired sausages
turkey
ham
2 types meatloaf
spaghetti-bake
slaw
rolls
garlic sticks
Biscuits
corn muffins
Desserts included-
chocolate eclair pie
orange Watergate salad
pineapple upside-down cake
2 kinds apple pie
white cupcakes w/ chocolate frosting
cherry cheesecake
lemon meringue pie
pineapple fluff-angel food cake
banana pudding
spice cake with cream-cheese frosting
I know I haven't listed it all- but who can remember all that?
I am on a diet and had said I was going to allow myself one bite of anything and everything I wanted as a treat.
Yeah- Right. Let's just say I haven't been bad like that for over 5 years and leave it.
Once in a five year period can be overlooked, tho. I am back on track now, tho- and despite being BAD- I still lost 2 lbs last week. It may show back up at next months weigh in- but hopefully not.
(I only weigh myself every two weeks now, so it's much less traumatic if I have a gain and it's easier to deal with knowing I have two weeks to get a gain off instead of the every week thing that is so popular right now with all the weight programs)
Anyway. Like I said- Summer is definitely here.
Again.
Friday, May 19, 2006
Grand Slam Weekend?
What The Heck is going on?
I'm not sure how to act.
This is the first weekend in months- and I'm talking over a YEAR- that I haven't had ANYTHING I'm required or have been requested to do.
I do have a family reunion I CAN go to if I want on Sunday, but that's a choice.
I have no O/T scheduled at either of my sites. I don't have to give anyone a ride to work or a doctors appointment, and I don't have any errands to run.
I get sort of nervous when things look too easy.
I brought two books home with me to read this weekend- Oh- and before I forget- I read a book last night that was great- it was called..."Wish You Well" by David Baldacci.
Great little book. The ending was a bit predictable, but all-in-all it was a good story.
I brought home "Contagion" by Robin Cook and "On Mystic Lake" by Kristin Hannah.
Cook is a given good read if you can get past some of the medical jargon- the Hannah book is one author I haven't read yet- The jury is still out on that one, but so far(page 61) it's a good steady storyline.
I hoep to get to read them both this weekend- hopefully while fishing in the pond that's a hundred feet from my back door and maybe I can sneak in a few minutes of catnapping while I'm at it. If we get lucky enough to not have any company to distract us, we might be able to make a bit of whoopee.... that's what I would call a GRAND SLAM WEEKEND!!!
I'm keeping my fingers crossed!
I'm not sure how to act.
This is the first weekend in months- and I'm talking over a YEAR- that I haven't had ANYTHING I'm required or have been requested to do.
I do have a family reunion I CAN go to if I want on Sunday, but that's a choice.
I have no O/T scheduled at either of my sites. I don't have to give anyone a ride to work or a doctors appointment, and I don't have any errands to run.
I get sort of nervous when things look too easy.
I brought two books home with me to read this weekend- Oh- and before I forget- I read a book last night that was great- it was called..."Wish You Well" by David Baldacci.
Great little book. The ending was a bit predictable, but all-in-all it was a good story.
I brought home "Contagion" by Robin Cook and "On Mystic Lake" by Kristin Hannah.
Cook is a given good read if you can get past some of the medical jargon- the Hannah book is one author I haven't read yet- The jury is still out on that one, but so far(page 61) it's a good steady storyline.
I hoep to get to read them both this weekend- hopefully while fishing in the pond that's a hundred feet from my back door and maybe I can sneak in a few minutes of catnapping while I'm at it. If we get lucky enough to not have any company to distract us, we might be able to make a bit of whoopee.... that's what I would call a GRAND SLAM WEEKEND!!!
I'm keeping my fingers crossed!
Monday, May 15, 2006
Today's The Day!!!!!
Joyously Announcing
the Marriage of
Sunny
&
Paulius
May Fifteenth
Two Thousand and Four
...Finally!
It's been the most wonderful two years of my life.
Happy Anniversary, My Darling Paulius!
the Marriage of
Sunny
&
Paulius
May Fifteenth
Two Thousand and Four
...Finally!
It's been the most wonderful two years of my life.
Happy Anniversary, My Darling Paulius!
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