"I'm Sorry but......"

Okay so today's blog-post was inspired by Michelle and her blog-post about her and her hubby going out to a restaurant just for(GASP!!!) Dessert.

Holy Cow- what a concept!!!! And a damn GOOD one!!

That's exactly the way I would live my life (and want to NOW)if the doctor gave me the news that..."I'm sorry, but you have an incurable disease and only have a few weeks to live."
Now, Michelle has recently been diagnosed with congestive heart failure(I'm not giving out any big secrets here- if you go to her blog it's in her "ABOUT ME") and I'm pretty sure that they're getting it under control with a big diet change and some meds and such...but it's still a royal pain in the arse for them I'm sure...Paul and I had the same deal when first I, and just a few months later HE, was diagnosed with Diabetes.

What I'm saying is it changed the way we thought about everything. My FIRST bout of thinking about this came with my kidney hospitalization in early 2008. I came very close to dying then. It was scary.

But anyway....I'd go out to eat and I would eat dessert first. Or have dessert for the entire dinner..(Or breakfast). I'd call off work and just stay in bed with my hubby and make love all day. I'd go to the theme park and ride all the things I was scared to ride before. I'd tell everyone exactly what I was thinking. I'd have picnics in the park, and go riding horses on the mountain trails. I'd go for long drives. I'd eat only if I wanted to eat. I'd go for long walks in the afternoons.
I'd only do what I wanted, when I wanted to do it.

But here's the thing......
We're ALL, every day, one day closer to our last day on Earth...so why am I NOT doing all these things I would do if I had been told by a doc I was dying?
Why are WE ALL not doing the things we really want to do? Can't we still lead productive lives and do all those little things that we would do if we had limited time left?

Think about it.