Saturday, September 24, 2005

I remember

I Remember…

…I remember when my Dad would let me ‘ride’ on the steering wheel of the old truck we had when I was about 1 ½

…I remember when I thought the best thing ever was standing next to my Dad with my arm around his neck as he spun his tires in the sand driveway.

…I remember my Dad taking us to the Shell station on White Horse road and getting to choose any candy we wanted from the HUGE glass display case.

…I remember my Dad taking us camping in the Pisgah Forest in North Carolina and teaching me to fly-fish even though I was only 7 and a girl.

….I remember making my Dad fudge and him smiling as he took it and asking “And what do you want, now?” I also remember him taking the fudge to his office and locking it in his filing cabinet so he didn’t have to share and could enjoy it in peace and quiet.

…I remember my Dad teaching me to drive a manual transmission car. I remember him telling me that when you slow down to make a turn, you shift down. I remember trashing a transmission (trying to get home before curfew) when I shifted down to first gear and popped the clutch going 40mph because Dad assumed I was smart enough to realize you had to be going slow to do that. I also remember him not laughing at me while we towed the car home at 4am

…I remember Dad walking me down the aisle when I got married. He was trembling more than I was. Now I know why.

…I remember Dad helping me rebuild my car when it was totaled a few years back. I had just put close to $2000 in a motor for it the week before and couldn’t afford to buy a new one, even with the coverage from insurance.

…I remember Dad handing me his hanky when I cried from everything from breakups to bad grades to skinned knees.

…I remember Dad always seemed larger than life - He was always my Hero.

My Hero is gone.

Today my Dad passed away, losing an eight year battle with Cancer.

I will miss him dearly.

10 comments:

Lois said...

My dear Sunny,

I am so sorry that you lost your Daddy so soon. You are very lucky to have had a father who loved you and showed you just how much with every action.

I'm happy that I got to meet him when I came to your wedding. I enjoyed all of his entertaining stories ... I certainly know where you got your ability to spin a yarn (yakkity-yak). I see it in your grandsons too. Your hero left behind quite a legacy!

Sunny, your Daddy lived a full and happy life. I hope that thought gives you all a little bit of comfort during this trying time. My heart goes out to all of you.

With love and prayers, my friend,
Lois

MaryMary said...

I am so, so sorry! The only refuge when my mom died after her long illness was the memories of the relationship we had. It sounds like you and your dad had a beautiful relationship. It was a gift the two of you shared, like being conspirators of an inside joke, a private club one where the two of you were so deeply loved and cherished by the other.

I hope you find support through your grief. Wrap his love and your memories around yourself like a warm blanket!

God bless you and your family.

topcat99 said...

Oh Sunny....
I'm so very sorry. I know how much it hurts to lose your Dad. I can tell you had a very special and wonderful relationship. Cherish those memories. I too am glad I had the opportunity to meet your dad. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family at this sorrowful time.
Terry

Pete said...

Sunny,

I am so sorry to hear about your father. You and your family are in my prayers.

OzzyC said...

I'm sorry to hear it too...

Help him live on. Love him. Honor him. Remember him. Tell stories about him.

MC Etcher said...

Beautiful post, you have so many fond memories of him!

So sorry for your loss, and wish I had something better to say!

serendipity said...

I am so very sorry for your loss.

I lost my grandfather last year - also to cancer. The whole family stood at his side in hospital as they turned of the respirator.

I don't have anything to say that can take away the hurt except that he is no longer feeling any pain which can only be a good thing.

I doubt you have very much making you smile at the moment so I will share with you something my Dad said to me last week when we happened to be talking about one of his friends who he bumped into in the supermarket. Maybe it'll raise a smile, maybe not, I can only try...

Let me just state for the record that my Dad might be one of the funniest people I have ever known - he refuses to let anything get to him too much and even has it in his will that Monty Pythons "Always look on the bright side of life" is to be played at his funeral.

Anyway I digress....My Dad said hi and seeing the forlorn look on hs friends face asked if everything was ok. His friend replied that no, everything was not ok as he had in fact just lost his mother.
My Dad put his hand on his friends shoulder and said "I'm so sorry, had she been ill?"
His friend looked confused for a moment and then burst out laughing. It was my dads turn to look confused then as his friend explained that he meant his mother had wandered off in the supermarket somewhere and he couldn't find her.
When retelling the story to me my Dad insisted that if and when anything should happen to him I never say "I've lost my Dad" he thinks it just sounds careless!

Strange man my Dad, but I love him dearly. Dads are wonderful, irreplaceable, character building and above all - the first man in life we learn to love with all our hearts...and unlike a lot of other men, it's a love that never dies.

Wherever your father is now Sunny, you can besure he is watching over you and still loving you as much as he ever did.

*Hugs*

Invisible Lizard said...

Such a beautiful post, Sunny. My grandfather lost a similar battle seven years ago. Your shared memories help me to smile at things I remember about him. Thank you.

Silver Creek Mom said...

Sunny

I came here when Pete had said you lost your Father. My heart goes out to you and your family and I willkeep you in my thoughts and Prayers You have great memories of you Dad and they will never leave you.

Major Hugs
Sharon

Kato said...

I have no words that can heal your pain, only my condolences. Sorry for your loss, Sunny.