I'm not feeling well.
I've been throwing up the past couple days, The roof is driving us mad, my car is on it's last legs, I had a problem patient to deal with all last night(I feel so bad for the nurses that had to deal with him), I'm sore, I'm tired, I'm frustrated, I'm upset, I'm broke and I detest my new boss so far.
I'm way behind on my Christmas shopping and decorating, not to mention my baking and such.
I've had to schedule and re-schedule our holiday plans- first because I thought it would be a special treat for a family member- but then realized it wasn't what they wanted after all.....so then I rescheduled it to try and meet everyones working schedules- only to have everyones schedules changed AGAIN last week. Next year we're going to England to spend it with Hubbys family.
Everyone is having major problems in my family and no one is happy......There's no Christmas joy here at the moment. I can't make anyone happy and even having my Christmas tree up finally isn't helping my spirits much. I just can't deal with anymore problems right now...I just can't...so if you can't get hold of me- I'm taking a break for a few days....I'm heartsick and need to heal awhile. All I want to do is just rest and sleep......with no worries. I only want calm and happy things here- no stress- no worries...just peace and happiness- only doing what I want to do with no opposition from anyone about anything.
Paulius is worried about him being a burden on me.....I think I'm the one whose the burden. It seems like everyone who has ever come in contact with me suddenly has a reversal of fortune shortly after making my acquaintance...... and I've come to the sad realization that I'm worth MUCH more dead than alive according to my insurance coverage.
I'll talk to you guys later.
Have a Very Merry Christmas if I'm not back on before then.....