Finally......

Finally- the day I have been waiting for.

Dec 31, 2006.

This year is finally ending.
A new year in fast on it's way in and I cannot wait.
I have had so much happen this year and altho it was a mixture of good things and bad- the bad seemed to out weigh the good even tho there seemed to be more good things happen than bad.

Good things.....

*My mom seems to be back with us more now than ever since Dad passed away.
*Paulius got his green card AND his work permit so thats out of the way- no more fees and paperwork to fill out except the normal stuff like tax forms and regular bill paying. Maybe now we will be able to get that house we've been wanting for the past three years.
*Paulius parents came over for a visit for a couple weeks and I absloutely adore them both. We got on famously.
*My kids are now all employed and have their own places.
* We got two pets- a dog and a cat.
The Dogs name is Buddy- altho we kinda regret naming him that and not Capt Jack. His eyes look just like Jack Sparrows with all that eyeliner. And he has that same sort of gay swagger that Capt Sparrow does, as well as only hearing what he wants to hear.
Padme-the cat- is misnamed as well- he's a MALE, but you'd never know it- he acts like a female.

Bad things......

* A few spats between me and Paulius. I know all couples have their disagreements and such- but it absolutely kills me that we fussed as much as we did this year. I'm vowing to be a better wife this year and it wont be hard to do with a wonderful husband like Paulius at my side holding my hand, having faith in me and cheering me on.
* Speeding Ticket- I'm just not used to getting those- or any other kind of ticket to be honest. My auto insurance is down-WAS down- to $19.00 a month. I hate to see what it will go up to with that ticket. Probally 25 dollars or more.
sigh...
* Second Life- the game......I have an addictive personality-and my gaming got WAY out of hand. I have quit playing S/L and hope all the bad things that came from it will go away forever.
Nuff said about that.


So- 2007 is the year for high hopes for me. We have no plans for tonight- I have to work and we aren't very party-ing people, I hope to make it up to Paulius on his Birthday tho.

I hope all you have A Safe and Happy New Year.

How does it happen?

Can someone pleae explain this to me?


Once upon a time in a land far, far away thee lived a person who was raised on a farm. And being raised on a farm had cows. That gave milk. and the milk was drank every day by the quarts by this person. Then when the person grew up and married and left home- they still bought whole milk at the supermarket and still drank about a quart of it a day....sometimes more, sometimes less.

Now about 5 years ago- when they turned 40-ish, this person started having some digestive problems and finally figured out it was the whole milk thsy had been drinking. So they tried 2% milk and it stopped the digestive problems. and all was good...for about a year and a half. Then , once again, the problems started. And again the problem came from the drinking of milk.Even the 2% kind.
So it was decided to go for skim milk- cause 1% tastes the same as skim so skip that part.

Well, now this person cant even tolerate skim milk. Nothing else seems to have this effect on the person- except Lil' Caesars Pizza.

How the hell does that happen?

Oh and Happy New Year!!!

BLUE! BLUE! BLUE! DOH!!! DAMMITT!!!!

Well, it just gets better and freaking better.

Today I was tooling home in my big ole 4-cylinder Ford Aspire and as I went up a hill with ten cars in front of me- Guess what happened?

I got Blue-lighted.

I dutifully pulled over, gave the nice officer my DL, Registration & insurance card as he explained why he had pulled me over. Seems I was going 50 MPH in a 35 MPH zone.
Well, first of all- I was moving along with the traffic-Not a valid excuse tho and I wisely didn't voice that thought.
Secondly- I HAVE to pick up a bit of speed in that car or it doesn't make it up to the TOP of hills....again- Not a valid excuse and I wisely didnt voice that thought either.
And Thirdly- why did he just pull me over? Just because I was at the back of the line of cars- but again...Not a thought I voiced...but had I done so I'm sure he would have come up with the correct answer which was...
" Miss? Have you ever went fishing? Did you ever catch ALL the fish in the lake?"

I've only recieved one ticket in my life. And it was for guess what? Going 50 in a 30 zone. 16 years ago. So much for my extra holiday pay I was looking forward to for the next two weeks. And guess how much that extra holiday pay would have added up to?

$110.00.
The EXACT Amount of the citation the nice officer wrote me.

PLEASE hurry 2007!

I hate this New Blogger Stuff

Its too damn complicated for me to deal with

Every time I pull up the blogs from bookmarks.... I read the blogs....then I make the mistake of trying to comment on one...and what happens??....It wont LET me- I have to log into that damn google crap and that requires a password- which I can never remember. So then I have to go thru the whole process of doing the recover password thing- or change it. I can never remember the answers to those damn secret questions- I resent the hell out of them anyway- what is this third grade where we belong to a secret club and have to have the right answer to a question before anyone else int he club will let us talk????????

Aparently it is.

Is 2006 OVER yet? Cause it has just sucked a BIG one for me this year and i cant WAIT for it to be over.

2007 has GOT to be better than this year

Merry Christmas!!!!!

A few thngs holiday to post about today.....

I've been really busy lately getting ready for Christmas. Finally got all my shopping dont and wrapped up- only to discovermy 70 year old mother hadnt dont hers ecxept a few things and so had to take her shopping for the rest of hers. My mum is one of those people who finish shopping at 8PM ChristmasEve and then stay up the rest of the night wrapping it all and then complains about it.LOl- Well I went up there yesterday and helped her finish wrapping and tagging it and sorting it and stacking it into neat little groups for all the families to be distributed on Christmas Day.....or when ever some of the INGRATES deem it worth their while to come by and see her. All she has to do now is decided whose Christmas party she wants to go to on Christmas Eve and Christmas Day and GO. Last year she was still in shock from Daddys passing- but this year shes so much more "with" us. I'm so glad- for a while it felt as tho we had been left by both our parents.But what can you expect? They would have been married 50 years if Daddy had lived til Christmas Day. I would be devastated if anything happened to my Paulius after only 7 years, let alone 50.

Speaking of Paulius, my Christmas Prezzie to him isnt as great as I had hoped it would be- after a week of seeming to run perfectly- it's back to doing exactly like it did before it was repaired...turn it on- it fires up quite nicely- altho still slowly......then as soon as you hit the first key to summon the Firefox program...it goes to a grey screen for about 3 seconds and then goes to black screen and turns it's self off. So as soon as the holidays are over- its a call to the repairman for a re-do. I think I may have to break down and buy Paulius that new one he wants but has been trying so hard to not let me know he wants so badly. Yeah I do pay attention to what my hubby really likes and wants. And if only we could hit that damn lottery it would be soooo much easier to give him his hearts desire.

Speaking of hearts desires..... this is going to be our year for getting everything we want. I just know super great things are in our future this year and all the trials and tribulations of this year will be over and forgotten for good. Its been a real roller-coaster and I for one am ready to leave the carnival and go home where it's safe and secure and quiet and calm. One thing I want is to find a new couch. The one we bought on our honeymoon is a bit worse for wear after almost three years. Paulius loves it still- but his side is still sittable- mine is not....I have broken springs next to the arm and whne I sit on it I get horrible back-aches. Yes- its a Lazy-boy recliner sofa and I know it was very expensive but we got it at a real bargain and i would LOVE to have it like it was again.....but I want one like my old one we had before it. No it wasnt a recliner-sofa, and it was fabric instead of leather, but we used to siton it and face each other and read or watch TV with each others feet in our laps and a blanket over our legs. Or we would snuggle next to each other and talk...or just snuggle and nap. The one we have now had a huge flip-down center section with cup-holders and a telephone center and even vibrating controls for the seats(which we never use) that is always in the down position seperating us which I HATE.
Yes the flip-down is convenient- but I dont want convenient- i want to snuggle with my husband Dammitt. Even if the flip thig was UP- the center seat is about 6 inches higher than the side seats and so we still wouldnt be able to snuggle together. It sucks.

My house doesnt smell like Christmas.......I put up an artificial slim-tree(Or my Christmas Stick as my kids call it) this year because the biggest part of my Christmas decorations are burried in the back hallway where we packed everyhting up last year. it would take moving 22 boxes from the top of it to get to the christmas boxes-another 12 or so boxes- and I just didnt/dont have the strength or patience to do it this year. I havent done any baking this year either. I usually do some cookies and a few cakes and I used to do a huge gingerbread house for the kids. But since my kids have grown up- I havent done the gingerbread house. About 7 or 8 years now. Next year for SURE I will do it. Now i have Grandsons who i am sure will love it as much as their parents did.

For Christmas this year Theres only one thing I want. I havent written Santa a letter to ask for it- because Santa cant help me with it. But I hope to get it anyway. I'm working on it.


And for all my friends out in Bloggerland- I want to wish everyone a Happy Holiday.

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL AND TO ALL A GOOD NIGHT!!

Holiday Cheer

You know, It's great having two computers.

Before getting Paulis' Laptop fixed we had to share the computer. And by the time the one on the computer has finished what they were doing, the other of us had thought of about a dozen things that we needed/wanted to do on it. So the cycle repeated over and over til we were both spending WAY too much time on the computer and not nearly enough time together actually doing things.

Well, now we can both be on the computer doing things we want/need to do and after a couple hours, we still have time to turn the computers off and actually spend time together doing real life stuff.

And the best part is- while we're both ON the computers we can still IM to each other. Now I know it might be better to actually TALK to each other...but when you're on the computer writing a blog, or an e-mail and someone interrupts you to say something or ask a question, it breaks your concentration. And being blond just doubles the problems for me, so it's really nice to be able to answer an IM when it's convenient for me. Unless you have a husband who types at the speed of light like mine does. Then you get distracted ...but its worth it with him because he is a fun guy.

I've been trying to get in the holiday spirit for the past three weeks....but my decorating mojo just isn't co-operating this year. My youngest son and his wife have graciously offered to have our Christmas Day celebration at their home this year. So I have decided that this year the Christmas tree and a few holiday things scattered in the kitchen and entrance way will do just fine for this year. I fully expect to be in a new house by next Christmas season and so will be able to decorate to the nines for the holidays. I will have at least three trees...possibly more.

I want a white one with white lights in our bedroom - I have a bunch of antique ornaments passed down from my grandmother and mother from the first years they were married- and altho I love my grandsons to death...they are all American little boys(Altho Christopher strangely enough has a slight British accent when he says Mummy)- all rough and tumble wrestling', nascar , gijoe fanatics and I really don't want them around my antique ornaments so they will go on my Bedroom tree- well out of their way.
Now one tree will be in the foyer or dining room...it will be a green artificial tree as well, with white lights on it as well and have a color theme-red and gold, or blue and silver, or red and green and gold...or something themey.......Whatever my mind dreams up for it every year. Maybe a quieter elegance for this tree.
But the MAIN tree will be in the living room/great room. It'll be a REAL cut tree that has all the smells of Christmas grown into it. I love Frazier firs myself- I have a few heavy ornaments that need the extra sturdiness of the Frazier firs branches. This tree will have both colored lights AND white lights on it, plus all our fav ornaments that we have gathered over the years...all the wooden ornaments we bought together, all the little ornaments the kids made in school, all the ornaments that we bought on our travels thru the years on vacation, all the old ornaments I've bought over the years at the flea markets when other ppl get rid of them in favor of new bright shiny ornaments. That's something I've never understood, why do people try to sell their ornaments that they've created memories with over the Christmases and bring in new ones?
I would have thrown a hissy fit had my grandparents brought tiny twinkle lights in to replace the big old fashioned bulbs that adorned their cedar tree every year. Some things you just don't mess with and traditions at Christmas are at the top of the list if you ask me. Every year in January I go to the flea-markets for one reason...to search out and rescue the Christmas ornaments that are being discarded and abandoned by their owners. I honestly feel sad for the ones I don't get to rescue because I run out of money before I get to them all. And this explains why I have about 25 boxes and bags of Christmas decorations in my hallway just waiting to be put out and used next year. Hmmm...maybe I should add that any cash donations you would like to contribute to the Ornament Rescue Mission will be put to good use. Just send an e-mail to Paulis or myself and we will give you mailing instructions.
:-) Hehehehehe.
Speaking of Paulius- he acts like he's all put out with me when I start decorating for Christmas- but I KNOW him and when we get our new place, I suspect he will have a few thousand icicle lights and lawn ornaments and maybe even a Santa sleigh and a few reindeer to put on the roof of our house stashed away somewhere. He's not fooling anyone and I just want to go on record as saying I will be right there at the base of the ladder waiting to call the fire-department or the EMS guys should the need arise while hes doing HIS part to help make our holidays a happy, colorful one.

I know this is a strangely rambling blog post today...but it matches my mood...Rambling and Random.

Happy Holidays Everyone!!!

Yeah.....I'm a Slacker

Here it is a week and a half before Christmas and my Miz Santa blog has gone by the wayside.

I didn't wanna post too much too early on it-and completely got bored with the whole thing.
Not like me at all.
I love Christmas...just this year hasn't been very inspirational for anything Christmas-Y.

This year I just want it to be effing OVER.

Maybe next year I'll be able to drum up some of the happiness and enthusiasm I USED to have for the holidays.

I don't know whats got into me....I just don't know.

Damn..................

I normally don't put too much personal stuff on my blog, but without going into any detail I want everyone to think about what is written below because...........Well, I've done it again and this may be the only way I can let them know. They know who they are-they read my blog sometimes..................

I went up to the line. Not over the line- but far enough that I now know EXACTLY where the line is. I thought that as long as you didn't cross the line it shouldn't matter....but I learned that the WAY you say things to not cross the line matters a GREAT deal-sometimes more than not crossing the line.

I hurt someone that I would not have hurt for the world and now I can only hope they can get past it and forgive me at some point in the future.

This time it may take weeks or months....maybe even years as upset as they are.
I'm sorry-I truly am sorry.

Ladies.......PLEASE!!!!

Ladies.....

I realize it's a BUSY time of year for you what with the added chores and errands. But let me take a minute to remind you...

When you're driving is not the time to MULTI-TASK!

Don't be trying to drive and putting on your make-up at the same time. If you do I might be beside you and if you keep easing over into my lane and look like you might run me off the road, when you take out that lipstick and start looking in the mirror- I will- and I SWEAR to you I WILL-drive up to just behind your line of sight and as that lipstick goes on your lips-LAY DOWN ON MY HORN.
You will look like a clown and have to pull over to fix the mess anyway so just save us some time and put on the make-up while you're in your house- or at least home in the driveway.

Now another thing.......Don't be talking on your cellphone unless you are VERY VERY sure you can do it and be alert to what is going on around you. Now in the past- and this happened again this morning........ stopped at a red light, woman in front is yakkity-yakking on her cell- digging in her purse for God-knows-what,(Probally Make-up) and sits thru three lights-totally ignoring the people behind her tapping their horns in aggitation. At the third changing, I got out of my car, and pulled a Kevins Mom(Home Alone 1,scene at the Paris Airport after realizing kevin is Home Alone).....I walked up to the car window-reached in got the phone from a very stunned woman- and told the person on the other line she would have to call back later. I hung it up, handed it back to her and asked her to look at the light because it was going to change to green in about 10 seconds. And she did and we all went merrily on our way(was damn lucky- again.)

One last thing- don't be driving along and looking back in the back seat yelling at the kids. You can't do both at the same time. Trust me, you will- at some point- either have an accident- or CAUSE one. My Daddy used to have a saying"DON'T MAKE ME STOP THIS CAR!!!!!"
And if they don't stop whatever it is that they need yelling at about- STOP THE CAR!
If you have to- Bring their uncontrollable lil asses back home as punishment- we don't want them running around like wild hellions in public anyway.



Now Normally I am not a violent person, but you ladies are driving me to do really stupid things. Please help me save my sanity and stay out of jail........

Thank you.

Point-Click-Edit-Rotate

I have been palying second life too much.



I walked into the supermarket the other day. Over the beer cooler unit was a fire-pit I thought Pauli might like for Christmas. No price on it anywhere but I could see a price flag on th other side towards the wall. So what did I do?
I raised my arm and POINTED towards the firepit to click on EDIT to rotate the thing so I could see the pricetag.
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No, Iwas NOT playing SL- I was at the local supermarket in my hometown!!
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Sitting home the other day I was thinking about my upcoming Thanksgiving Day dinner and was thinking that I could re-arrange my furniture in my living room to sit more people in it. So what did I do?
Raised my arm to click on Edit to move my furniture around.

I'm going to bed now.......................................... Night everyone.

WARNING!!! STUNTS Are Preformed By Professionals & Should NOT Be Tried At Home By Amateurs.

LMAO!

Last night Paulius and I were having a wonderful conversation over the phone while I was at work.

As the conversation was coming to a close I asked him......"So you ARE going to go with me to run errands tomorrow afternoon, right?"

To which he gave his normal reply....HUGE SIGH with somewhat put upon voice..."I SUPPOOOOOOSE so......"

Now, normally, I would have just said "Okay." and said I loved him and I would see him in the morning when I got home- but the conversation was going so well I thought I would infuse a bit of that British Wit and Sarcasm into it.

Stupid Move on my part.

I instead said-with the same amount of sarcasm and put upon voice as he used...." FINE- NEVER minddddddd.......You don't HAVVVVVVVE to...."
To which he replied..." I WAS JOKING!!!!! DAMMIT.... you know what.???......................"
and then...................

Before I even had time to laugh about it- .............


He HUNG UP ON ME!!!!!

I started ROTF laughing because, OBVIOUSLY, he hadn't realized it was me trying to be all sarcastically witty like him-(British in other words), so I dialed him back.


And he refused to answer the phone.
Seven times.
On the eight time he actually picked up and immediately HUNG UP again without saying a word.

And Obviously by this time I had STOPPED laughing 'cause it wasn't quite so funny anymore.
My hubby was really pissed at me for something he thought I meant one way but was taken the WRONG way.

So I decided then and there that being sarcastically funny like a Brit does NOT translate to Southern very well and should NOT be tried again by me, Cause It just makes me a BITCH- which I assure you I am NOT.

In conclusion .........let me just say....

Leave the witty sarcasm to the PROFESSIONALS-(The ACTUAL Brits) and don't try it at home if you're an amature like me.

And to Paulius- let me just say....It was an attempt to be cute that failed miserably. And you are the ONLY person in my life I've EVER had hang up on me and has gotten by with it. Anyone else would either be dead or strung up by their balls.

And that's because I love you so damn much.

WARNING!

The Great Darkness (Part 1)

The numbing coldness swirls around my feet on the ground
Inching up my body
Covering me with it's despair
The hopelessness squeezing the life from my soul.

Happiness and contentment draining away
Like the last ray of sunshine before the night falls.

Am I still here
Or have I disappeared into the darkness that has come to claim me?

I am Afraid.

The silence is deafening
And the Great Darkness is upon me and it is Terrifying.

There is no up or down
Only a Dizzying Directionless void that spins me into oblivion
As I cry silent tears..................................
And I wonder-
Will anyone know that I am gone..............................................

Yes ........I AM Alive & Still Writing

Hello- Let me re-introduce myself....I'm Sunny and I'm a Blogger.

Dear Fellow Bloggers.............


Let me explain to you all -(specifically Ozzy who asked)- why I haven't been blogging lately.

I went to the doctor Friday before last because of some dizziness and other problems I've been having for the past few months.
Well, turns out I have some serious health problems. My BP was 190/100. Not good....so the doc gave me a script for BP meds and told be to go home and REST for the weekend- go nowhere- do nothing that wasn't absolutely necessary, take my meds and stay on a restricted diet...no salt-no caffine- no sugar. As for the other problems- we would get to them- the BP was/is a life threatening problem that needed the immediate attention. She wanted to see me in two weeks, I wanted a month- we compromised on three weeks for a return visit during which time I have strict orders to stay as stress free as humanly possible.

I am on the verge of a stroke.

During the past week and a half my mom has had heart surgery and I had to be up there with her- with all the wires attached to her and the IVs -which meant the sight of needles which sends my BP thru the roof on a GOOD day. Before they even took mom into surgery I started feeling funny- they took my BP and it was 190/113. So I got sent home to bed again and had to rely on other family members to deal with Moms situation which made me feel even worse and stress more which raised the BP even higher.

Mom came out of the surgery fine- didn't need the serious part of it after all- and altho I had been trying to keep my medical situation from the family- I ended up having to explain why I wasn't able to care for mom while she was in the hospital and when she came home. More stress- I don't like everyone in the family knowing my business because they all try to "fix" things and they just end up making things worse-I'm sure you understand...y'all have families too.

Anyway- I haven't been blogging because -as you well know- my fav thing to do is to vent-bitch-whine-complain- you know...just generally be me and that causes my BP to go up again. So I just haven't done it lately. I AM still reading and commenting on your blogs and it's helping a bit to be honest- all the laughing at stuff you guys are writing about is helping-I think.

I'm sorry I haven't told you guys about whats going on...but the meds Doc put me on has me off in La-la land most of my waking hours and well- to be honest- I'm not sure what I would be writing about would be fit for human eyes to read.

Yeah, I have some DOOZIE Dreams on that stuff.

So Ozzy- Thank you for asking- and even tho you may be sorry you asked- there is my explaination...It made me feel good that you noticed I hadn't been doing what I normally do.
I'll try to put something in every few days in the meantime til I can get back to a somewhat normal lifestyle just so you know I AM still alive and bitching....I mean kicking.
K?

Luvz Y'all ALL!
Sunny

Headlines.........................

Today's Newspaper Headline...

SMOKERS FACE BAN!

It seems Legislation is in the works to ban smoking from all public buildings and areas.

Okay first of all- I RARELY smoke myself. Occasionally I will chain smoke a pack or tow IF
1)I'm extremely upset about something.
OR
2)I'm out clubbing and/or drinking.

Now I can understand banning smoking in places like schools, in hospitals retail businesses and gas stations. And one of my personal pet peeves is having to walk thru a food establishment thru the smoking section to get to the non-smoking section. Why not put the smokers in the very back and install a good ventilation system instead?

But I'm sorry they are taking this anti-smoking thing way too damn far now. What THE HELL are they thinking banning smoking from clubs and bars? It's the last place smokers can go to enjoy themselves.
I swear soon this country is going to ban couples from having sex as well. How about blowing your nose in public? Coughing, anyone? Chewing with your mouth open? Scratching an itch(even your chin or knee). Taking too big a bite of food. Eating anything with fat or sugar in it. Wearing anything other than what politicians think is appropriate.

It's really starting to piss me off all the rules and regulations that office-holders think they have to have control over. And every day it's something new that they think they have to make an new "RULE"/Law for.

Look People- I'm a damn adult I can make decisions for my own damn self. When you start paying all my God-damn bills and provide everything for me like my Dad used to do THEN- and maybe not even THEN- will you have the right to have a say in what the fuck I do in my private life.

So lay off my damn rights and freedoms!

Shout Out

Just wanna give a shout-out to a few of my SL friends who I know read my blog ...

Paulius-aloth technically we havent evemet IN SL
Leila
Dargo
Lee
Misty
And last, but certainly not least, Bridget.

Luvs You Guys! Y'all are my family in SL.

Well Finally!!!

Finally I feel like I might live to see my next birthday. I don't know but this bug got me big-time. But I am almost feeling somewhat normal again. Paulius is a few days behind me- but I think it's safe to say that he's well on the way on the road to recovery too. For the past two weeks neither of us has felt like doing anything but sleeping, or laying on the sofa moaning. Of course there are things we HAD to do- like work, and laundry, and occasionally eating if we can muster up the energy to drive, god forbid, to McDonalds(which usually only got half eaten before we gave up because everything tasted a LOT like I imagine stale cardboard would taste) or if we could find the energy to drop a pack of Ramen noodles in a pot of water...I'm pretty sure that a couple times we actually forgot to add the flavor packet to them too- but as sick as we were we just couldn't tell until we got thinking about it several hours later- or when we found the packets when we went to make a nice cup of tea.
Eh- we both needed to drop a couple pounds anyway.

On the upside- since somewhat recovering I have found a wonderful way to occupy my time while Paulius sleeps his health back. In Real Life I can't re-arrange my furniture in the house because
1) We have several systems hooked up: the TV system, the stereo system, the Home entertainment system, the computer system and the answering machine system for the phone and moving everything and the hooking everything back up would -while not being impossible for me to figure out- would take sevearl hours and would completely frazzle my nerves.
2)Most of our furniture is too heavy to move by myself and since Paulius hates moving furniture anyway (mainly because I make him move it four times before putting it in the first configuration )and would require me to either hire a mover to do it- or to ask my sons to re-arrange their whole schedule to do it for me and that could take a few weeks and by that time I might not be in the mood to move furniture when they finally get there which means it was all in vain anyway.
So in SL I have a fantastic job and lots of income-(DAMN I wish RL was more like SL)- and so I decided to rent a small cottage with a very nice open Floor plan. It's two rooms- a very small corner is devoted to a kitchen-(altho WHY SL houses have kitchens and bathrooms is COMPLTELY lost on me)-but the rest of it is a HUGE great room and off of it is a smallish circular room. Well I have a 200 prim limit for decorating it. So I went to the Freebie Warehouse which is basically a HUGE junkyard or yard-sale with huge crates just FILLED with all sorts of interesting stuff. Some have vehicles-(yes plural), some have 89 pieces of furniture, some have decorations for a home, some have clothes, some have skins or hair for you Avatar, some have electronics like stereo systems and HUGE assed large screen TVs and such....so many things to choose from. But anyway, I went and bought-(which isn't correct because you don't actually BUY it- you just click and add it to your inventory)- I think it was 4 crates of furniture and 2 crates of home decorations and 1 crate of plants.
And then I got to decorate to my hearts content. I took every piece out to see the size, scale, and color in relation to my cottage.
And it took me tow days to look at everything and then choose what I wanted to use out of the inventory and figure out how many prims I was using and how many I had left to use. And so now I have a lovely cottage with a HUGE rock fireplace in a corner, two leather couches, two glass tables, two chaise lounges, and a custom kitchen set I had a friend make for a cool 500L just because I wanted it. I don't have a bed in it- nor do I have a TV. It's decorated just the way I want it and I can re-arrange and decorate to my hearts content. If I want to . You can move things around- you can move them up and down and back and forth and you can rotate them in any direction.

Now you may think this is just stupid to do- but look at it this way guys....if you have a wife/SO/GF who loves to re-do things all the time- invest in either a premium account in SL for her so she can own her own house and move /re-arrange things to her hearts content, or invest in one of those architect/home design programs for the computer(no need for the Internet at all).
You wont have to lift another finger to move heavy stuff in Real Life-......

Sometimes the technology is GREAT.


Only problem Paulius has with it is that I'm tying up the computer when he wants to use it to do stuff. Well, everything can't be perfect now can it???????

I see another computer in our future...maybe a round March or April if things go right.

I'm so glad we're feeling better now.

Happy Bithday to My Two Wonderful Daughters-In-Law

Birthdays are always a really big deal around our house. It's your special day when you can do almost anything you want and not get any flack about it.

If you don't wanna go to school or work- you don't have to go. If you want to go see a movie or go to the amusement park- you get to go.
For dinner you get to choose the restaurant the family eats at- or if you prefer- you get to choose the menu for a stay-at-home dinner. Doesn't matter what is is- you get it. Shrimp and fries, Meat loaf and mashed potatoes, Lobster with butter, calamari, Eggplant soup, or mac & cheese and beans and wienies.......doesn't matter - your birthday- your choice.
You also get to choose what type cake you want for your birthday - or if you want pie or toll-house cookies or a banana split instead of cake- you get it.

And on your birthday you get to eat off the special Birthday plate.

My eldest son's wife's birthday was on October first
(Easy for me to remember my daughter in Laws birthdays)
Marie is married to firstborn son, Frank- her birthday is October 1st which comes before November second which is daughter-in-law Kathy's birthday who is married to second born son, Clayton.

But I have been sick and wasn't going to bring that sickness over to their home and give it to all them with those babies just getting better from being sick in the first place.

So ,Marie- I honestly haven't forgotten about your B-day.

I plan on having a party for you and Kathy together- just as soon as the first frost comes. The first weekend after the first frost I'm making a HUGE pot of chili with lots of shredded sharp cheese to top it with. We'll have bags of corn-chips to go with it all and have Birthday cake for dessert and gallons of sweet iced tea and Pepsi to wash it all down with.
And you will have your Red Velvet cake and Kathy will have whatever cake she wants as well.

We might even build a big bonfire and toast marshmallows around it if we can twist the boys arms to build it.
(You know how much twisting that will take! About ZERO- They will have it blazing before we can get the request out of our mouths....What IS it with men and FIRE?)........

Anyway- I love you girls like you are my very own. You love my boys with every fiber of your being and it shines like a beacon and I just want to say I couldn't be more blessed.

Can't wait for Old man Frost to arrive, baby-girls!

MWAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A Stone Cold Bitch And Other Fun Stuff!!!

It's been a hell of a couple weeks here.......

Paulius and I both have been sick- just about the time we think we're on the brink of getting better we backslide a couple days and are sick again.

We won't go there with family relations- lets just say that strained isn't the proper word at this moment.

One son got bitten by a brown recluse- twice on the back of his arm near his elbow- and twice on his right hand pinkie finger. Had to go hospital and an incision made to drain the poison/infection from the bite. Bandaged but on the road to recovery now.

The first anniversary of my dad's passing occurred on the 24th of September. It was rough - but thank goodness I was sick and unable to attend the family gathering my mom had tried to plan for us all. I hate public grieving like that. I do mine in private-I don't need an audience, thank you, even if it is just family.

Work?- well.....we won't go THERE either....altho one good thing has come from that front. We are going back to our old style uniforms next month. YAY!! And remember I told yas how they screwed me out of my raise this year on some bullsh!t technical mumbo-jumbo and how I told them that they would be sorry because someday they were going to need me really, really, badly for the job I am trained for but they didn't wanna give me the extra 15 cents an hour raise they gave everyone else across the board?
Well ,this week guess what happened? They called me begging me to help them out with that exact situation and I promptly laughed in their faces, told them "I told you so"- and then told them to F*CK off.
What could they say? It hasn't been 2 months since they blatantly told me that I was the only person to not get that raise this year and that they would deal with any situation like this that arose. Little did they know, eh?

Sometimes it feels good to be able to righteously be a stone-cold bitch.


Anyways, Just to let yall know I am still alive- haven't croaked yet but felt like I was close a few times.

I'll update here soon as I'm feeling better and up to it again.

Well, Now I've Gone And Done It !!!!!

I've gotten Paulius sick with whatever I have.

I hate when I bring stuff in to him. Had to have gotten whatever it is at work. I tell you- the hospital is a GREAT place to pick up viruses and germs. And I'm very careful about washing my hands and wearing the latex Gloves when I handle ANYTHING at the job.

Guess I missed something somewhere, tho.

I'm sorry, Sweetie.

And the other thing I did for only the third time in my life was to somehow manage to concoct a casserole that was totally inedible. I don't know where I went wrong- it was WAYYYYYYYYY too salty and somehow the ingredients just didn't mesh.

I've made a casserole many times that is very similar to this one- sort of a meat-loaf but with no tomatoe sauce or tomatoes in it-but this time it just didn't work.

Maybe it's because I am sick- maybe I just added a tad too much of the COMBINATION of seasonings- but whatever it was- I won't be trying that recipe again.
UGH....
I wonder how many dishes Julia Child or Emeril have screwed up in their careers......

Sigh................................................

Well, sorry guys, I have been under the weather recently.
I cant figure out if it's allergies- a bad cold-the flu-or bronchitis.

I do know I'm going to have to go to the doc soon if it doesn't clear up.
Because I cant stay in bed or off work just because I feel bad.

Paulius and I have had an up and down week.

Today is the 1st anniversary of my dad's death- I was supposed to go to the cemetery with my mom but can't since I'm sick. Only good thing to come out of the being sick deal. I can't deal with the drama of reliving my Dads funeral. Once was enough. That's not to say I haven't been to visit his grave site since he passed away- I have, quite a few times- it's just that I don't want to be around the rest of the family when I do. Mine is a private kind of grief- not one for show to prove how much I loved my Dad. He knows I worshiped the ground he walked on and even tho I know I disappointed him many times in my life He still loved me the same as I did him.

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Paulius still hasn't received his Green Card yet- but he did receive his verification letter to say he had been approved and that the actual card would be arriving within a few days. It's the first time we have received one of those official letters that we've been happy about it. Usually every time one of those things arrive we have to re-arrange schedules and I end up taking time off from work and we end up paying out loads of money for fees or certified copies of something or some such deal.
We're breathing a HUGE sigh of relief that it's all over and now we can be a somewhat normal couple who's not afraid that any tiny misstep will land him on a plane and us separated. You have no idea what the process is like unless you've been thru it yourself and it is one scary thing to do. Most couples hire an attorney to wade thru the process for them- but we did everything on our own without legal aid of any type. If I knew in the beginning what I know now- we would have hired the professional to help us git-er done. But that's water under the bridge now- and we can be normal.
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Speaking of normal...........Paulius is now regretting his decision to mention SL to me- Now I know a lot of people on here are probably getting tired of all these blog posts about SL this and SL that. But I am one of those people who don't give a rats butt about playing computer games. But I went on there to make my hubby happy and give something HE enjoys a try. Just to say I tried it.
Well, now I'm on there when I come in from work for at least a couple hours, I go to sleep and then since I'm usually up and hour or so before HE gets up- I'm on there when he wakes up. On the weekends I pretty much stay on there all day on Friday after I get off work- well, until he wakes up anyway, and then he gets on for a few hours. The Saturday & Sunday I get up about 6:30 AM to let the whining dog out and so while I'm waiting I turn on the comp and start playing and get a couple-few hours in while Paulius is still in bed. And so when he gets up he goes on for another few hours himself. He also is on a good few hours when I'm at work every weeknight. At first when I wasn't playing it- I was complaining about him being on too much and not spending time together as a couple....Well, the tides have turned my dears!! Now it seems to him like I'm on when he goes to bed on the weekends- and on when he gets up- which is true enough, but I haven't been on all night long. I LOVE that game- I don't have time for RL friends because of the crazy hours I work and the insane amount of time we've had to devote to all that aforementioned paperwork, but in my home sitting at my desk I have made the best friends of my life with the exception of THREE persons. And two of THOSE I met while on the WW online chat. And, as you well know by now- even Paulius and I met online!!!!
In SL I have all the money I need to go guilt free shopping with my friends whenever I want- no bills to pay on there- just dance-shop- and make friends. I can buy all the things I want to and not have to carry anything to the car- or unload it at my house- it all goes into my inventory as soon as I pay for it and I can take things out as and if I need them. I don't have to worry about giving anyone a lift- and if someone comes online and wants to join me wherever i am- I Teleport them to my destination and vice-versa. And the best parts of the whole thing are that I have the perfect body- the perfect hair and bestest of ALL- I CAN FLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I have probably 50 or 60 friends in my friends list and I love each and every one of their company. There is no bickering amongst them- well most of them. And with just a couple of exceptions everyone has been as nice and generous as can be.
If only RL worked like SL does it would be great. I have a great job on there- I don't have to follow a schedule like Misty does- If i wanna work, I do- if i don't I just don't. Sure there are rules to follow in there if you don't wanna get banned from places- but those rules are bent as far as possible to ensure you have a great time in that little world.
I told Paulius that I detest my RL job, but it makes it soooo much easier to tolerate when I have my SL job that makes me so much more money(even tho it isn't really negotiable in RL..YET) and where the people are always so nice and care for each other.
SL isn't much different than my Blog friends either- only difference is that SL is real-time chat instead of posted comments. And I luvz you guys a lot as well.
Anyway- my point was- paulius seems to be regretting telling me about SL and I just want him to know I totally understand how he's feeling, but it's his own fault, and it's exactly the way I felt before I started playing it a month or so ago.
....(Altho in HIS defense I have to say he wouldn't play very much at all on Friday or Saturday nights because it's my off nights- but in MY defense it's the only NIGHTS I have to play and get to be in the thick of things going on- usually when I'm on it's during the slow times when everyone else is still abed or in school and such as that.)

........what's that saying?????

Be careful what you ask for- you just might get it????
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Anyway, I must go now. My darling hubby wants to write a blog-post.

WTH HAPPENED?????

Yes this is another SL post but a slightly different one than usual.
SL is a LOT of fun. You get together with other people via their Avatars and party and cut up and usually have a blast.

But there is a dark side to SL- and just like in RL there are some really strange and disturbing people in that world.

In SL women have a few choices for jobs available to them to earn money. From the most profitable to the least are:
*Business Owners-. IF they have enough funds to set a business up or can find a partner/partners to invest with them.
* Escorts-Also along the same profits level as business owners(sometimes more). Sex sells. BIG TIME.
*Dancers- lots of different kinds- from hostess types to stage dancers to topless to full nudity.
* Gamblers
*Dance-Pads-Dance on a pad for a few Linden for 10 or 20 minutes.
*Campers- sit in a certain area for a few Linden an hour, or basically just be a warm body to fill the space and be a draw for others coming in to the establishment.
*Gambling

Now in SL I'm a dancer. And I'm very new at it. I've been being coached by one of Paulius friends and one of my friends in SL and my stage debut was yesterday afternoon.
It was NOT a pleasant experience for me.

The club was holding a gambling event and I decided it was the perfect time to debut. Not too many people there and what was there would be interested in the gambling more than my dancing so any mistakes I made would be easily covered if they were noticed at all. Unfortunately, Paulius couldn't be there because 1-he wasn't feeling well in RL & 2-We only have one computer and it doesn't have enough memory for us both to be logged into SL with a duel screen.(THAT will be rectified before I go back on stage tho).

A few people began showing up at the event as Adav was on stage dancing. I was watching from the comfort of my office chair as my avatar was on stage. Well, this strange guy came in and was literally running all around acting like a total moron- as long as he wasn't being overly obnoxious the staff sort of ignores ppl like him in the name of having fun. Being too strict and serious can drive business away and that's not good for an owner of ANY type business- especially a club. Weapons and REALLY obnoxious behavior are about the only things you can get in real trouble for in SL. Well, when the dude got close enough to me I caught bits and pieces of what he was saying to some of the girls. Not very nice stuff- but if they weren't objecting who was I to say anything. But I did keep an eye on him. He finally gave up on the floor and came and sat in front of the stage. Very well behaved- didn't say one single word- just watched a while and then walked around a few minutes and then came back up to the stage for a few minutes and then left to run around a bit more.
At this point I had had enough of the dancing- people weren't tipping - they were there to WIN money, not spend it- so I called it a day. When I clicked on the avatar to stop her dance mode she stopped dancing, but instead of stopping on the platform- she stopped and was beside the stage.
(SL has been having some problems this week and it was just another glitch, so rather than wrestle with the controls trying to get Adav back of the stage and into the dressing room that way, I took her to the side entrance beside the bar.)
Unfortunately, as the door to the dressing room was closing, "Mr Weird Crazy Dude" ran into the room with her.
He ran around the room and then stood in front of the door- not trying to go out- but facing Adav and not saying a word. Very creepy.

Adav told him he had to leave- it was a "staff only" area. He just stood there and ignored her and so she repeated it again. He finally did leave after a couple minutes.

Maybe it IS just a game- but that really freaked me out. I've had a couple bad experiences like that in RL that didn't end that well and let me just say that Mr. Weird Avatar brought back some really bad memories.

I re-dressed Adav in street clothes and brought her back out to the club floor- but Mr. Weirdo was gone by then.(It took quite a while for me to get Adav re-dressed I was shaking so badly)
All the other staff was busy at the gambling machines and hadn't even realised that the dude had went in there behind Adav- or if they did notice they didn't say or do anything about it. So much for anyone looking out for ME when I'm dancing.

Okay- so here's the thing..........The scariest part of the whole episode wasn't what the dude did-altho it was upsetting- it was how I had reacted. I mean it was two freaking Avatars in an isolated room and I absolutely panicked. I had been watching this dude act strangely all afternoon and when he came into the room like that I froze in RL!!

WTF??????

Me- who has has self defense classes out the ass because of the RL situations- I've had TACT training, Anti-terrorism drills and I'm an expert marksman with a 38 & a 9mm. And I EFFING FROZE!

Now, before you go telling me that I take this game wayyyyyy too seriously, let me just point out that playing games like these teaches us things about life experiences and about who and what we are in life. And this little game had just given me a few questions I still can't answer.

Would I freeze up like that if I were confronted with a situation like that in real life? Would everything I've been taught and trained to do and say just fly right out of my head like it did in the dressing room?
It scares the hell out of me to think that maybe I would freeze up.
Maybe I AM making too much of it- but I'm one of those people who likes to be prepared for anything life can throw at me. I don't like surprises- especially the kind that could make me a potential victim again.

Maybe it's time to re-take a couple classes.

Don't let this little episode influence you to NOT try SL- it's only the 2nd weirdo I've encountered in that world and the majority of the people are friendly, fun-loving and helpful.

There are weirdos no matter what world you're in.

Nut Case Monthly

WARNING- THIS BLOG CONTAINS MATURE AND INTIMATE SUBJECT MATTER- IF YOU ARE EASLILY OFFENDED- OR ARE A FAMILY MEMBER -BE ADVISED THAT IT MAY CONTAIN INFORMATION YOU DON'T WANT TO KNOW ABOUT.

We women are nuts- absolutely certifiable.

Every month I go from sweet adoring wife who would do anything for her husband to mean obnoxious hag from hell in the space of about a day an a half.

I'm serious.
I have told my darling husband that after a certain date he should just get out the handcuffs, shackles and gag, and chain me in the basement for a week. I equate the whole process to becoming a werewolf. Actually, I think a werewolf could be a lot NICER than a woman on her menses.

I'll go thru this from time slot to time slot, refering to the dreaded time as GROUND ZERO.

One week before Ground Zero- I am fine. Typical conversation between hubby and myself as I arrive home from work....

Him:" Hi Sweetie! "
Me:"Hi Babe."
Kiss-kiss-kiss.....Hug-Hug-Hug.......
Him:"How was work?"
Me:"Work was work, as usual. How was your night?"
Him:"Fine- Worked on my book- played a few games on the computer, read about half a book"
Me:"Great! Glad you got around to reading the book- it's due Friday isn't it?"
Him:"Yep, and I'll be finished by then. Would you like some breakfast?"
Me:" That's sweet of you, but how about I make breakfast for you this morning since you made it yesterday?"
Him:" Okay, Love you!!"
Me:"Love you too."

Two days later....
Sittting together watching TV.
A program is on we both normally enjoy watching, but I am beginning to feel a bit antsy. I don't know why. I just want a bit more attention than he is giving me at the moment. I sit and stare at him for a while- hoping he will catch the hints I am obviously throwing his way.
He doesn't catch them.

I sigh loudly and turn back to the TV. I watch a bit more and then get up and wander around a bit, walking in front of him and the TV several times hoping he will catch the hints I am obviously giving him another chance to catch.
He still doesn't catch them.

I walk past him again and sit heavily back down on the sofa next to him and give another long sigh as I lay my head on his shoulder.
He looks at me and smiles. I am somewhat pacified and watch the rest of the show with him altho I for some reason find it nessecary to change positions several times to make sure he knows I am throwing more of those obvious hints for him to catch, but when the day ends, he still hasn't quite caught it- altho before the week is over he will certainly GET it.

Two days later........
I awake from sleeping, turn over and hubby is sleeping so sweetly beside me.
I snuggle up and he snuggles back- and falls back asleep.
This is frustrating........and a bit more than mildly irritating. How can he sleep when I want to cuddle?
I snuggle closer- wiggling quite a bit more than I have to to become comfortable. He sleeps on....
Dammitt- I want attention- I want it NOW- I "accidentally" wake him up- that ought to do the trick.
"Sorry" I say sweetly and cuddle back up. "S'ok" he says.
And promptly falls back asleep.
Loud sighs- gone unheard because he's back asleep........ I finally get out of bed and dress....of course I make as much noise as possible and have to climb over the side of the bed a couple times before I find my sneakers. I go to the kitchen and bang the pots and pans around - not because I'm going to cook anything, mind you. Just because I am feeling VERY antsy and cranky and I want someone else to give me some sympathy and attention and they can't because they are sleeping blissfully in the bedroom.......... I then go to the den and put the TV on- and knowing how he hates to listen to the DIY decorating shows- I turn the sound up to 3/4 volume. My reasoning?
If he can't sleep- he will come and do one of two things- either get up and come get me to go back to bed(therefore giving me the attention I want WHEN I want it-) OR- he will get up, get dressed and get me to turn the dreaded DIY show off and we will do something together(therefore giving me the attention I want when I want it).

i.e.- I get my way.

Sometimes it works - sometimes it doesn't.......

Ground Zero- but before the actual menses show their presence......

Same conversation as a week ago. but in GZ time........
HIM:"Hi Sweetie"
ME:"Hey Babe."
He tries to kiss me- I give him a quick peck and go to the bedroom- all I want is to get these damn work clothes off- I hate work- I hate the drive every night- I feel like crap and I don't want anyone else to feel better than me.- And don't be so damn perky and smiley either, dammitt.
Him:" How was work?"
ME:"It was crap- I hate that damn place. Everyone is rude and obnoxious and I get crap for evrything- whether it's my fault or not......... Where the hell is my damn sneakers? Why is it that every time I come home everything is moved around?"
HIM:" I'm sorry work was bad baby- can I make you some breakfast? And BTW- Your sneakers are just inside the closet- I put them there when I hoovered last night."

Oh............Now you would think I would feel remorse for being such a bitch..... but I just want a good row right now...........

ME:" Well, you would think you would put them back where I had them- that way I wouldn't have to hunt for an hour after working all night. My back is killing me and I am so hungry I could eat a horse- the LEAST you could have done was had a pot of coffee waiting for me while I waited on breakfast, but nooooo--- I have to make my own damn coffee."
Cue me stomping off to the kitchen.....

He stands there looking at me with a look of pure bewilderment on his face, not knowing what the hell has happened to his sweet adoring wife- and probally wondering if he has any chance of making it to the door and locking me inside before I have a chance to rip him limb from limb and have his liver for breakfast.

He wouldn't have a snowballs chance in hell.


I then go to the kitchen and make breakfast myself, all the while making as much noise as possible (and mumbling under my breath about nothing specific- just all the sailor words I have learned and a few I have made up)- this time because I AM going to cook something, and cook alot of it as well, dammitt. I cut my finger and this absolutely infuriates me- so I take the knife and go outside and throw it into the nearest tree trunk....It quivers in the tree for two minutes after I go back inside. That ought to teach that bastard knife a lesson.....

I finish breakfast and take a couple of tablets. My tummy is cramping now and my back is hurting. I have a massive headache and ABSOLUTELY EVERYTHING is pissing me off. And on top of it all- I am in need of a serious lovemaking session.

HMMMmmmmmmm...... Let me just say it's damn hard to convince your man to give you some loving when you can't find him because your man is cowering in the back of the closet of the guest-room holding his breath because he's afraid if he moves you will find him and dis-member him.

DAMN HARD.

Let me just say- I know what a nut case I am- I admit it- and am sorry for it- and if there was ANY way I could controlit - BELIEVE me- I WOULD!!!- But I can't- no matter how hard I try to control it- I know it's going to happen and I have TRIED to control those urges It's impossible- Honestly and truly, it IS.

So sweetie- Let me just say... From the first day I snap at you- give me three days- and then, while I'm asleep- get the cuffs out and snap them on as fast as possible- As a matter of fact- slip me a Mickey just to be safe so I don't wake up til AFTER they are on.....then drag me to the basement and shackle me to the pipes in the cage and lock it for 7 days- not a second before. And leave me there.....


Just for good measure, maybe you should load the gun with a whole clip of silver bullets.
Don't lay it down- and for God's sake- don't fall asleep til after the 7th day.

I am- after all- good as gold for the other almost three weeks of the month........

I'm Still Alive...

And no I haven't been on SL all this time ignoring you guys and neglecting my blog.

My mom is in the hospital with pneumonia and a kidney infection. May be in several more days so if you don't see me, you know why.

In the meantime- entertain each other and I'm sure I'll have some stories to tell you all when i eventually DO make it back.

Hugs!

DAMMITT!!!!!!!

I KNEW this would happen. I KNEW IT!!!!

Seems that security was breached on SL and they quickly went about changing everything. Now they have it "fixed".

Well, I had to go reset my password because they had to change all that. Well, lo and behold- I go to the site to change it- and what happens? It is refusing to recognize my answer to the security question.

I hope Paulius can fix this because if he can't I'm gonna be pissed. I sent a mail to support to explain what was happening- but no telling how long it will take to get back to me.

I could set up another acct and avoid all the hoopla- but if I do I lose everything I have acquired on there- not only my material possessions- but my entire contact list as well as all those expensive upgrades for my avatar I had gifted to me to begin with.
I learned that the skin alone would cost over 1200 Linden to replace- and I just got my latex suit!
Grrrrrr!
I KNEW it was too good to be true. And this is exactly the reason I don't do more stuff like this online- because I have crap for luck.

Dammitt!!!!And I think I'm going into DTs too just knowing I can't get on there!
Sum beach.

Double Sum Beach!!!

Double Double SUM BEACH!

DOUBLE QUADRUPLE TO THE ZILLIONTH POWER SUM BEACH!!!!!!!

Yeah, I'm not happy...is it showing?

Sigh.......It's Finally Happened.....

I'm beginning to become addicted to an online game.

Second Life.
Do any of you guys play it?

I thought I would go on and see what all the hoopla was about.
Well, I did- and for the first week I was so frustrated because I was a newbie and had to learn all the controls and pick up gestures and stuff. I'm so not good with dealing with learning new things like that- mainly because I bug the crap out of Paulius asking him a blue zillion questions andd i feel like I'm imposing horribly on his time to do what he wants while I'm on the comp. He would just get sat down and I would ask a Q and he would have to get up and come show me something.
Then two minutes later, just as he's getting a ciggie out to smoke, or just getting back into the book he's reading or getting back into the plot of the movie, here I go with another question and up he would have to come to show me something else.
The man has the patience of Job and he hasn't complained once about it.
I, on the other hand have NO patience and almost called it quits several times during that time.

I traveled alot-well, transported- and went to some of the hot spots and favorite places. Most of the people in the big ones were kinda snobby, you know- they already had their own little groups going on. The people I met just walking around exploring or in the quieter places were great tho- very friendly and helpful.
So I learned from them. And of course, from Paulius.

Then I finally acquired enough wealth to upgrade my basic avatar...new flexi hair and a new outfit. One girl gave me a new body shape and new skin -a really nice tan.......and now there's a whole new me on there.

And I like her. She's more ballsy than I usually am. But at the same time she's not lost all her sweetness. She'll do well in SL, I'm thinking.

I'll see if Paulius minds if I post a snap of my avatar on here. If he minds, then I won't.

I got to see his new avatar self as well yesterday. And I have to say....Dang, my man is sexy no matter where he is!!!

Anyway, my point is......I'm becoming addicted to this game. I'm not obsessed with it- I don't neglect RL for playing it, but any free time I can spare between all the running and work and spending time with my hubby is spent in SL.
I never thought there would be an online game I liked enough to actually seek out playtime for.
Well, besides Bejeweled or Majong, that is.

Paulius won't gripe either- not that he would- because he was the one who got me interested in playing it. I think he's sort of surprised that I've taken to it like I have. Whether it's pleasantlly suprised is something he will have to answer.
Myself, I think he's a bit bemused at this point.

Some people on there get SL & RL confused sometimes- that'll never happen to me tho. It's fun to be another place and another person sometimes tho. It's relaxing and strangely calming to me. I think since I started playing it I haven't had my blood pressure up once. That has to be a good thing, right?

I'm so glad Paulius introduced me to this little game. I'm having a LOT of fun with it.

Awwwwww...........

My vacation will be over tomorrow night at midnight.

I just want to say how MUCH I've enjoyed it these past few days. I have slept all I want- ate when I wanted(and not worried an iota about being on a diet-and doing so have thought less about food than at any time in the past year- probably have lost a few pounds as a result as well!)and not done any housework except for dishes.
I have a house that is a total mess- a huge load of laundry that needs doing, and floors that definitely need a good hoovering since we have a long-haired ginger colored mutt who insists on wallowing on our carpet if there's a clean spot on it, but I am the most relaxed I have been in a couple of years.
I have had pedicures, manicures, had a deep conditioning of my hair, and done all the Goddess maintenance I haven't time for when I'm working my arse off. My perfect husband has cooked for me, has given me the most wonderful body massages, has snuggled with me watching TV movies, has taken me out for dinner a couple times, has made me coffee whenever I wanted, opened doors for me and kept me lovingly exhausted!

Who could have asked for a better more relaxing vacation/holiday?

Not me.
Only problem is- I wanna do this every MONTH now.

Any suggestions besides winning the lottery? I'm working on that one already.

Who Would Be You?

If someone made a movie about your life, who do you think would be the best actor/actress for playing the role of you?
Who would play your spouse?
And your best friend?


My Choices....
Ellen Degeneres in the role of me-funny & quirky, but without the gayness.
Brad Garrett would play Paulius- Funny, Serious & Sexy...a very hard role to take on.
And Dixie Carter for my best friend- intelligent and proper- but with a wide fun streak as well!

The only one I'm really sure about and wouldn't change is E/D as me, tho.

And Speaking Of Vacation/Holiday........

I am officially ON my vacation...well, two days of it, anyway, which with my regular two days off for the weekend makes 5 days........sort of.

It's New Math.

And wouldn't you know that Ernesto is heading this way.
Lots of rain in the forecast.
So there goes the camping idea. And probably the Fair which is in town this weekend as well.
Paulius and I are in charge of planning at least ONE night of "something" each.
We have a budget- the same amount of money- and we are going to see who can come up with the most to do with it. It's not really a competition, just something to keep us both occupied.

So far I haven't been to sleep since coming in from work. I know I should- but I've been online on SL- something I rarely get to do when I'm working during the week. I just don't want to waste a second of my FREE TIME!!! Such a rarity must not be squandered! Yes?
I know one thing, tho....at some point I'm going to have to do some housework. I don't want to- but it MUST be done......at some point............maybe................no-yes...........maybe.

Eh, if it gets done it will- and if it doesn't it won't.

I don't care....I'm on HOLIDAY!!!!!!!

WHOOOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The Moral Of The Story.......

Is pretty much whatever you get out of the story.

My own personal take would be that:
Life is bumpy anyway and all the little detours are just that- detours.
Some are enjoyable-others aren't so much.
The choices that seem to be the best aren't necessarily the best.
The detours that seem like dead ends can be the most rewarding in the end.
You have to always be careful to not rush into anything.
And Short-cuts usually get you there faster but you don't have as nearly an interesting life if you always take them.
.....Finally, never look back- there's no point-it's what's ahead that matters.

Also, always check your fuel, oil and tires before you start out, and be home by dark.
(That's what my dad would tell me anyway.....)


The End.........

(Personal note to Rayray..........I take back the C- and give you an A+....you and my hubby were the only ones brave enough to think about it and answer on the comments. I can be a bitch sometimes.)

The Road Less Traveled.......

There is a small dirt road in the upper regions of North Carolina that is one of my favorites....Or it was when I was growing up. You could go for miles on it and then you come to a spot where there are about a dozen smaller dirt lanes, not much more than buggy paths, that branch off from the main road. All within a 100 foot radius.

Now some of the lanes go steeply uphill. Some go slightly downhill. Others go steeply downhill or slightly uphill. And a couple just lead off on a somewhat level plane. But all of them have two things in common. They all branch off the main dirt road, which is a bit bumpy to begin with, and you can't see very far down them after only a few yards because they all curve at a certain point. I've been down every one of those lanes. I've made many detours from the somewhat bumpy dirt road to see what was down these others.

The entrance to every one of the lanes is different. Some are very landscaped and beautiful with mountain laurel and black-eyed Susans growing in abundance. Some have miniature hemlocks growing and look very natural but it's a "planned" natural look. And some of them look absolutely unkempt. Weeds growing everywhere and not a lick of flowers or shrubs to dress it up. Some even have chains across them. No locks- just a thin chain or cable and in one case just a bare tree-limb laid across it.

Naturally I took the prettiest ones first. And usually they led right to a space already occupied by someone else who was unwilling to share the beauty of it with anyone else. Sometimes these pretty ones led to nothing- an absolute dead end with nothing but big trees at the end and no way to turn around. You had to back out the same way you came in and if you made one miscalculation you could have been in real trouble.
Some led to a REAL dead end- a cliff that plunged a hundred feet to the bottom of the gorge- not marked in any way- just the sudden sight of blue sky in the windshield. God help you if you were going too fast to slow down in time, if it was dark when you went there the first time, or inebriated in some way. Dangerous as it was- that was an eye-opening moment- a moment that made you look at your life and think- what if............

The grown up ones lead to the most beautiful scenery and scenic views I have ever beheld or ever hope to behold. Beautiful views of the mountain range for miles and miles and miles. A secluded spot perfect for a picnic lunch and a short nap before continuing the journey. A view of one of the wondrous waterfalls that are abundant in those mountains - provided you know where to look for them.

And one- ONE out of all those small lanes was a shortcut back to the main four lane highway- the road that would get you to your destination faster and easier on the smooth blacktop, but had no places to slow down and enjoy the ride, no flowers to stop and smell along the way, and no pretty views to look at as you rolled along. Just an interstate expressway and toll-roads to take all your joy and money away with tall lob-lolly pines and scrub-brush to look at as you zoomed your way along.



The moral of the story?
You tell me.

Anticipation

I actually have word that I DO get from Thursday morning at 8AM thru Monday night/Tuesday morning midnight off from work.

FINALLY some downtime. I do have some important errands to run on Friday morning- but after that I'm home free!
WHOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOO!!

It remains to be seen what is happening with my raise increase/decrease. I'll know by Tuesday tho.

Anticipation, anticipation.

I'll be DAMNED if.....

I take ANOTHER cut in my wages from this damn company.

When I came back to work for this company I was making much more than I am now. I'm talking dollars here every hour- not pennies. Every time I've had a transfer ,except this last time, I have took a small cut in pay.

When I transferred this last time the big guy told them to keep me on Dispatchers pay- I'm fully qualified-the only one of the dispatchers to have formal training (from the PD)- and I've kept up with all the dispatchers training since I left the dispatch job, hence, in a pinch I can come and dispatch for them if I'm needed there more than where I am now. That was fine- I despise dispatching but like I said- in a pinch I would do it. Well, a few weeks ago- about 6 to be truthful- everyone in the company was supposed to get a "cost of living" wage increase. I didn't receive mine. So my former supervisor talked to the lady who does payroll to see what the holdup or oversight was.
Well, he had me call him last night and he told me I might not want to pursue it any further because Rita was saying that she was going to bump my wages down to regular officers pay and THEN give me the raise- thus I would be making yet ANOTHER dollar an hour less than I am NOW.

I don't FUCKING THINK SO!
(I know- very unlady-like language-sorry)

I'll be looking for another job first.
I hate when things like this happen. It's the story of my life tho.

And I didn't even get KISSED first.
:-(

Yes, I Did.... And Thanks For Noticing, Ozzy!

I also started a new blog.
Christmas oriented, of course.

I know, I know- most "normal" people will be going... "What the heck is she on about? It's only AUGUST, for God's sake!"

Well, it's true- it IS only August but in case you haven't noticed before, the Christmas holidays have a really BAD habit of sneaking up on us and THAT'S why there are so many people running around on Christmas Eve still trying to find a dozen gifts on their gift list .
I have never let that happen to me. I start EARLY as you will find out if you read the new blog a couple times.

Basically, before your eyes glaze over, the new blog is all about how to NOT be one of those people who can't enjoy the holidays because of inorganization. I have a system- it works- and I'm sharing it with everyone. I will have gift ideas, when to shop ideas, a tutorial on how to decorate a Christmas tree, different ideas for setting up a snow village (Dept.56 style) and different locations to set them up, special holiday recipes, how to properly wrap a gift- even oddly shaped ones-(they're the attention grabbers under the tree), and stuff like this.

It'll be fun for ME anywhichway you look at it. For you guys, I'm not so sure.
I'm such a Christmas freak.

I'll share a ~secret~ with y'all.......when I was little I used to tell everyone that when I grew up I was going to marry Santa. And I was serious.
;-)

(Then again, I also wanted to marry Doohickey, (locals in upstate SC will know who THAT is!) and that was because he was so funny and silly and made me laugh every Saturday morning.....sadly, I never got to go on the Monty's Rascals show myself..................sigh.........)

Anyway, I grew up but my love of all things Christmas is something I never grew out of. I sing Christmas carols all year long- much to Paulius' dismay.
Some people hold to the train of thought that if you sing Christmas songs all year long it takes away the specialness of the holiday season. I disagree- I think you should keep the spirit of Christmas in your heart all year long. I DON'T, however, think you should start decorating for Christmas until after Thanksgiving is over. That thing that the stores and shops do with Christmas advertising starts the week of Labor day really P!sses me off ROYALLY! One holiday at a time, thank you. However, as expensive as Christmas can be, I do have to be prepared and start shopping early. I'm on a tight budget, but even on a tight budget I can do the Christmas thing up like a PRO!

Anyway, Just thought I'd share the new blog news with you.
If you're interested in checking it out later...or MUCH LATER, the addie is:

www.askmizsanta.blogspot.com

Holiday Hugs!
;-)